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2007-09-13T22:14:00.001+08:00

GUESS WHAT HAPPENED??

HEHEHEHEHEHE!!!!!

FOR THE ALLIANCE!!!

This is the (not-so) Stealthy Nayra

Adventure at Mary Ann's house. LOL

2007-09-04T00:35:00.000+08:00

Really tired and stressed out. So many projects, so little time. And i miss quanju sooo much! Alas 320 presentation is on its way, i hope we do a marvelous job this friday.

Still more research.. and more shitt.. BUT there is always smth to rejoice about!

Here they are! i went all the way to Outram to meet Emily for these!!

Charmlings specially made by Emily! They are SOO CUTE aint they?

Toast and Egg =D

This one has Origiri and Waffles! ok bad lighting but their cuteness shines through!

Check out more cute stuff like these at Charmlings!

2007-09-01T23:11:00.000+08:00

I am SO SO SO BUZY.............................. T.T

I wish i can be free of ALL my worries, datelines and project meetings

and stone.

Stoning is my favorite hobby.

Quietly sitting , watching the world go by is also one of them.

At the moment i just wish i can have some sleep and a peek of Quanju

2007-06-27T17:45:00.000+08:00

I have decided to make it a point to study the map and roads of Singapore. I haven wasted too much petrol getting lost in this tiny island. I lost my way on the expressway and ended up at a construction site, did an illegal U-turn and still got lost...

but with Quanju, i had a walking-living GPS cum road directory with me =D I shall install him in my car.

2007-06-09T20:12:00.000+08:00

Hi the reason why i'm blogging this post is because i've finished all my animes and am waiting for new episodes to come out and that WOW server is down atm for 2h..

So as Xueyi or Chyne has asked, i shall post a new entry so she can read in when she reach Jiang Xi Ping Xiang, ... some rurual village in China, i really think she has a peddi field there although she kept insisting she doesnt!

Anyway, nothing much has happened. I'm not a very happening person, even if things do happen, i am way too lazy to post here. In fact, i took a good 30min trying to log in to blogger because i had forgotten my Username and PW since the last time i blogged was 2months ago. And even if there are happening things in my life- what makes you think i shld share it with you? hurhurhur!

2007-04-20T11:38:00.003+08:00

My sister brought Donuts from Donuts Factory!! I've not tried any coz i'm damn full with MOS burger but i hear it saying "EAT ME!!!!!" She Queued 2h to buy it!! and yes sadly i was too lazy to post up the pictures of it.

My little sis is anorexic, its worrying she is realy so thin and skinny, Skinnier than ME. Now if anyone who is skinnier than me she is either anorexic or really just have skinny genes but it shld be obvious. I prefer her chubby, in fact she looks MUCH better when she is chubby and she has more life too. I really hope she fattens up coz i dont want to lose her. And i still wanan eat the stuff she makes.

2007-04-20T11:38:00.002+08:00

OK i'm finally done with Rime of the Ancient Mariner.. and i sure hope i dont have to write an essay on it- coz i have no idea how to relate to "New Poetic Voice"

things to do after exams:
1) play WOW!! (get my epic flying mount and Tier 4 gears!)
2) Make Joanne play WOW
3) Play Basketball (this has abit of problem since ah pehs dont like to play with 'xiaomei')
4) Shopping! I need a new bag and new clothes.. and new necklances..
5) Fishing!!! Yes, Quanju pls bring me to a lake where they are many many fishes!
6) Watch all my animes
7) tidy up my room.. i wish i can get a new shelf
8) Eat buffets......
9) Stone all by myself in my comfortable little room
10) WOW and Bball again.

2007-04-20T11:38:00.001+08:00

Sigh Damn siannnn Mary Ann always get me really nice and delicious jobs and i always cannot make it due to the following reasons:
1) Cell retreat
2) Cell
3) Special Semster
4) Driving Test (THIS IS THE WORSE)

to miss any jobs because of the 1st 3 options is perfectly fine. To miss them because of a stupid driving test is retarded!! Whyyyyyy must my test be in such an odd date?? WHY must i fail the 1st time?? WHY is it seems that i'm fated to not work (again) this holiday?? WHYYY i'm never able to find a job which allows me to take 1 day off for the test nor a good 2 month temporary job which WILL allow leave of 1 day for that stupid test. Ok its hard to commit when i have so many things on BUT still, its damn suay that the period of work HAS to clash with SOME of my holiday activities.. THis is just damn unfortunate!

I think i'm fated to WOW this holiday away.

2007-04-20T11:38:00.000+08:00

Cant wait for holidays. Xiangting is right, the only things i ever blog abt is mainly holidays and thats because i only blog during exams where I HAVE to keep myself AWAY from WOW and hence with just a computer i blog random retarded things to entertain myself.

I'm begining to be like a geek - with WOW addiction and stuff. I even bought a set of Bleach postcards for myself omg. Somehow these days i always wonder what to do with my life. Like what am i going to be next time. My furthest thought is to be married to Quanju and have kids. but then i still have to complete my degree in case any unfortunate things happen i am needed to support the family. I realised how far into the future i have thought compared to most of my friends. Yet none is about jobs nor career. I really dont feel like working. I know i'm not a very sociable person, yet only till now have i realised i'm more anti-social than i thought i am, i dont really like meeting new people somehow, i am not good at making friends. Thank God i still have some, i wonder how they pop into my life, its a miracle.

And i so miss basketball, i love it like how Joanne loves her dance, i can just imagine her joy & disappointments in it. I wish i can still play compeitive basketball but it usually dies at A'Div (for gals) unless i wanan play for some random team which usually has no team spirit. A team with a strong team spirit is hard to come by, i really miss SA bball team. I miss training. Now that even Mr Tan has gone to China, there seems to be nthg left even if i go back, the old SAJC bball court is no longer there, the new one feels soo cold and unfeeling, absolutely void of the nostalgia of 2003.

Kuchiki Rukia kicks Ass!!!!

2007-04-15T19:53:00.001+08:00

My food is always always burnt each time i toast it in the toaster-oven. I really had prefered the old one. This new one is too.. eager to burn my food. Its has an insane desire to radiate heat with all its might regardless of how long its put to be. Whether it is 2min or 5 min - the result is always still burnt - its simply a matter of how black it turned out to be. it really spoils my appetite coz i've to spend time peeling off the burnt parts piece by piece and chewing off the 'saved' parts- its retarded omg. I end up eating only half of wadever i heated. Nothing beats the time it started a fire at 6am while heating up a piece of pattie for my burger (apparently the the cheese inside oozed out and got cooked till the aluminim foil underneath it caught fire) So dumb right? What a retared toaster.

Today i also burnt off some of the hair on my arm. It happened coz i was trying to start a fire to cook my noodles and the gas was too much so the initial flames got too big and had a mild contact with my right arm. I only realised something was wrong when i saw tiny black dots on my arm and after i washed it away, i realised it was soot and my hair in the area was burnt off leaving short tiny strands only. I wonder if hair really gets burnt off so easily? I feel sorry for the guy at MA's friend's wedding whose hair caught fire - he must have lost quite a bit of hair.

If u're thinking Why is Eunice blogging such retarded things, truth is, she also doesnt know- its just what CS814 does to you. Its so boring she has to blog retarded things to entertain herself.

2007-04-15T19:53:00.000+08:00

blahhhhhhhhhh......
bored.............................................. with CS814 so bored i've checked out all the online shopping sites and came to blog this post to say i'm bored.

What a BORING subject.... if its not for the compulsory science module i'd not have taken it. I think they are trying to make our lives difficult! To think Science students get to take some EASY art subjects WHY do we have to take THREE compulsory science mod?? WHYYYYY...!! Its damn unfair lah! i rather take 3 business ones - counting and mangagement is so much better than learning how to draw a idontwadsitsname graph/plot/table.

And this coming special sem i've to take my LAST science mod - History of Great Inventions. Great. It better not be TVs and Telephones or Cars or INTERNET nooooo!!! There are so many Great inventions i hope they choose the more interesting ones like... waffles.

2007-04-12T19:31:00.000+08:00

4 days to exams shit i am bored again...(coz my WOW account expired -__-) i cant wait for exams to be over! This semester is tiring, its enuff with the projects, with the big brouhaha its worse. I hope Little Miss Princess is stronger now, its a pity that we didnt make friends. I did try but Its hard i guess, we 're both so different and have sooo different mindsets. She can think she is self-sacrificing but whatever, i dont give a damn because i cant be bothered with her little world. I dont like confrontations but i think its better than running away and pretending - coz that way there is still a chance of any friendship in the future, at least after confrontations both parties are aware the are able to start anew. She can pretend to QQ more. lol. Jobs and money are the world to some, but i'm glad i have my family and darling- whom i have soo neglected.. damn you school. I didnt even get to go out with him much this semester even though he has already ORDed.. DAMN YOU SCHOOL.

Ok sch is great if not for youknowwho. Mary Ann and I created a webby as a tribute to our guild -Heaven And Earth Its hard work man, but we manage to get the effects we wanted. (Its for sale for all GMs out there, price negociable!)

I really wanna play WOW man.. and i wanan pass my driving and do many other things.. and maybe put in a flash in here?

2007-04-10T02:11:00.000+08:00

Seriously. some people dont grow up. some people are so damn pampered they really shouldnt be studying in Singapore. I really wont mind their presence, but i really wont wanan be in contact with them. Its downright disgusting. People who talk like others only care about school-they dont even have the right coz all they see is themselves. Themselves at work. Themselves in School. Them Them Them. its about the ME ME ME. Talk about leaving Singapore? Why not? It'd be a better place without you anyway. Just go! omg why cant they just LEAVE and stop talking and complaining. If you're here alr and cant do anything, make the best out of it la talk talk talk whine whine whine, pretend pretend pretend to be all self-righteous and self-sacrificing. Sure you think people has school as their only priority? you are obvious living in your own world. Hi there, ownworld.com.sg! Nice to meet you.

Just because people arent working like you do doesnt meant their lives revolve only about school. Some ppl just ake pride in their work, some ppl are simply responsible to OTHER people- its basic curtesy. When you're a team player you are interdependent on your teammates- unless you're a free-rider and ride on their work- then your just a lousy bench warmer lol. Oh sorry. i meant to say you're WORSE. coz sometimes bench warmers cheer and support the team just as well. Free-riders are well, selfish disillusioned nympcumppoot.

If these ppl complained so much about school they should just jolly well QUIT it man they dont need the degree anyway. Its just a piece of paper. They are rich to start with and they are working now. SO? Go work la! Talk so much and screw up other people's work for what. Not liking confrontations is different from having no choice but to suck up to people.

I wish these people will stop pretending to be all innocent and oh-so-pure when they are obviously not. I've come to appreaciate the girl who wrote me a hate mail during my 1st year and i respect her for her honesty. I really do!

2007-04-09T00:30:00.000+08:00

Ok. I just had a WONDERFUL time at Esplande with Joanne and Mary Ann, MA's friend, Jamie and MA's parents lol. I thought all was going well for the weekend then.. ALAS! This huge humpty dumpty whale came crashing her weight at our poor friend.

What the hell man. Such a whiney little turd. If i'd known she made used of us to do her stuff we'd really wouldnt give a shit. I hate pretenious bitches who makes use of others. I HATE free-riders who does their own "oh i'm so buzy coz i'm working" shit and ride on other people's hard work. C'mon. You DONT need the money, you jolly well make sure u do ur job as a good student and dont screw up other ppl's work. If she wanan compare about money, if i can quarlify for NTU welfare scheme and survive, so can that wadsherface. Just w/o Prada that's all.

if you want to remain a Princess, For goodness sake, Quit school. Go Your Highness, Just go.

2007-03-30T21:49:00.000+08:00

I miss WOW! I really hope i can level to 70 and get a flying mount soon! and I hope exams will come and go soon! and then i can finally relax with my small but comforable circle of friends.

Speaking of which i am glad i can tell who are my true friends and who are sticking to me for the sake of getting something out of me. Seriously that whale shld just stop whining coz its getting on my nerves. Oh sorry it already got on my nerves. I dont take crap, sorry. Boy am i glad i got MA to do all the PR for me, if not for her my enemy base would have expanded 3 times. Not that i care but at least it'd have reduced the threat meter by half. This whale has a HUGE aggro range. Its like if you are even within 50 yards radius of her she'd have her emo eruption that goes on forever. Its so dangerous that i'm glad i emerged alive.. so far.

I'm thankful that i'm not one of those who wont be left alone when FYP groups are formed. =D

2007-03-03T17:24:00.000+08:00

hi hi Im really fine now. Just really really really disappointed that i failed driving. I'm extremely ambitious you see. And a strict perfectionist. So yeah. But i realised that That is why God let me fail this time to humble myself. I figured i'm actually very very blessed and i Thank Him for that - like great family, 2 sisters, a loving bf and lots of very close friends like Mary Ann and a caring cell group. I'm thankful.

ok this is a pic of my dear friends...

Dont you wanna know what they are staring and pointing at?

2007-02-27T21:28:00.003+08:00

I'm fine.

2007-02-27T21:28:00.002+08:00

I want to end this life you gave me. Why? I dont want to be played around anymore! I have failed all your trials and tests. I failed the tests of the world and your tests and everything else that is testable.

You want a testimony from me? It is that I am MADE a failure. YOU are perfectly capable of making people for the sake of just making them fail. That is their only job on earth. Even though you took away Job's things, YOU GAVE HIM BACK TWICE as much. What abt me?? Ppl pls dont use Job's example. HE wasnt made a failure, I am. Dont give me stories like oh this guy failed 7 times blahablahblah I DONT CARE! That is THEM, not me.

Dont let me lean on you only to let me fall.

2007-02-27T21:28:00.001+08:00

You said your plans are always the best. Is making me spend more time and money on another Test better? Is making my schedules so tight taht there is not even time for myself good? Is adding this worry together with tons of other worries of work that i have good? YOU ASK YOURSELF. What is your point? Are you driving me to sell my soul to Satan?? IN YOUR FACE for you to be happy that you dont have to care for another one of your created souls? The one you made to be SOLD away? Just because you dont feel like taking care of it anymore??

I DONT GET YOU. Why are you making this SO HARD? Do you really think i can cope?

YOU are pushing it too far

2007-02-27T21:28:00.000+08:00

God, WHY did you make me a failure? If u want to play with my life then what is the point of letting me have it?? WHAT IS THE POINT? WHAT Is the point of wasting all the time and effort of mine just to show me in my face that I SUCK?

Congrats, You have succeeded in making me a failure, telling it to me like a tight slap on my face. Wasting my time and money and opportunity cost of doing my projects, screwing my grades along with it. YOU HAPPY NOW??? DO YOU LOOK DOWN FROM HEAVEN AND SMILE AT MY HORRIBLE FAILURES FOR PURE ENTERTAINMENT? YES.

2007-02-13T23:05:00.000+08:00

I'm sucked into WOW. Again. Its like drug, a really addictive one. I'm taking in little dosage of it each week. I hope i can keep it moderate. I think i can though... I think. So far its only for a month and i'll stop. i hope...

I love the poem Globin Market. Its so creative and you can read it again and again and think its interesting. With 4 or more interpretations of it and its association with so many different contexts, it has successfuly place itself 1st above other poems such as Aurora Leigh and My Last Duchress, easily by passing We are Seven.

btw, my English tutor is cool. I mean, she has a gigantic tattoo on her back
and i miss Little Britian..

WOW oh WOW.. what have you done????

2007-02-02T00:29:00.000+08:00

Stupid things always happens when Mary ann and i are together. I think i said this many times since the days of EWs (English Writings in BP). But i guess its better than when stupid things only happen to me alone coz den i'll look silly alone.

But really, we ought to familiarize ourselves with our sch shutter bus. We were actually quite glad that we ended our 1st class 1h earlier, excited to eat Hall 2 Canteen food we attempted to take the Shutter bus - which we unfortunately couldnt quite regonize. As this red bus approached us, we were in the stance of boarding it only to realise it didnt stop for us because its for factory workers. (btw tt bus stop only has the 2) Just then at the opposite bus stop, there arrived a vaugely familiar bus. That was the shutter bus.

All things were good on the bus even though we dont quite know which way is nearer and where exactly we can alight. Anyways because we didnt know where the bus bell was, and not wanting to look stupid by asking, we prayed hard that some1 will either board at that stop and/or alight there - which one thankfully did or we'd have sat pass it like stupid cows.

Til now, i have no idea where the bell is positioned.

2007-01-30T21:38:00.000+08:00

yay. i just changed my blogskin to white coz i'm quite sick of black.

Finally finished my fil250 essay its a great test of my APA and summary skills. I am so looking forward to tue shopping! its been some time since i shopped with Mary ann (although QJ will blame her for my spending but its really NOT her fault, in fact she my best shopping partner - able to critique and comment and give advises as to what i am going to buy instead of some mere "OK." kind of useless comments.)

btw, QJ told me his campmate got 4 nipples.
Like REALLY 4 extra nipples without the breast around it and probably has some strands of manly hair on it too.

2007-01-30T13:40:00.000+08:00

i just browsed a few of my friends' blog today (i mean friends whose blog i never visited before): Deana's one is cool full of fun things and pictures, Joanne's one is ultimately cool just like her, Mary ann's one is.. well.. dead as usual haahaha well and now i think mine's ugly like hell. I hate this ugly blogskin and i DONT KNOW how to change it omg. some1 help me pls!

Its a good thing to get something going since i blog when i am bored.. like w/o WOW i really do seems to have lots of free time. Besides my blog's been dead (again) and maybe i really should follow xiang'er's suggestion to revive it. (even though the revival doesnt and wont ever last long)

But alas! i always got nothing to say! If i really need to pour out my sorrows.. i'd do it face to face, it feels much better than typing it out - i am not exactly a poet ya know. Besides my words structures usually cannot bring out the intensity of my emotions. Or Maybe i am just distant and clinical- which strangely is the way i like myself to be.

2007-01-28T22:33:00.000+08:00

ok i shall not sound so emo now. i'm not exactly emo when i talked about death - i'm just mobid. Like sometimes when i talk about death, i actually dont mind experiencing it. Its a passing moment when i feel that i got nothing to lose.

But of course not all the time i feel that way.

I'm growing a tummy.. a huge spare tire around my waist, its going to be so big that ppl will mistake it for a swimming float stuck on me. Its a clear sigh that i should make an effort to run now or go shoot some balls. But.. but.. i am too lazy to renew my contact lenses.. havent renew it for 2 months alr.. Now its only going to be ready on thursday..

And i cant swim coz my hairdresser told me not to..

Hairdresser: xiao mei ah, remember you cannot go swimming ok?
Me: huh? Whhyy??
Hairdresser: Because the chlorine will discolour the highlights of the hair. Make untill so pretty den you want to go spoil it.. no la dont swim la
Me: ohh ok. Then how long would i need to wait before i can swim in it again?
Hairdresser: Hmm when you dont like this colour anymore lor, u can swim and it will change colour one.

So yeah..

So today was boring.. I missed church (as i have mentioned earlier on) and spend the whole day reading Don Juan Canto1 and A Defence of Poety.. Actually i rather read the poets' biographies. Like how Lord Byron is a ultra scandalous guy who loves making out with guys and has hots for his half-sister and cousin and married his wife only to escape this crazy pursuit of a girl. (poor Lady Byron!)

2007-01-28T15:03:00.000+08:00

Its cold and dreary. I missed church today *sigh* its horrible, i dont want to miss it but yet i did. I cant blame anything nor anyone but myself.

And I am sick. I hear this really annoying soft siren sound ringing in my ears. Its like the sound of blood gushing to my brains or that air is being circulated in my ear and this is amplified coz my ears are blocked, as well as my nose. Making me having to sit in an awkard position just to get enough air into my lungs - sometimes this isnt comfortble at all. In fact, its ALWAYS not comfortble.

And i think this blog is ugly.

2007-01-18T23:23:00.000+08:00

Pls be patient, soon, after this sem, i shall create my very own blog layout in flash version! i will!!! So begins my days of filming, shooting, html-ing, visualizing....and so on and so forth.

I miss playing basketball.

2007-01-09T14:06:00.001+08:00

If only my family can be more patient and understanding. more gentle and kind towards my insecurities.

Life sucks. i dont know why i manage to live til 21. i sort of dont really want to. There isnt really much that i look forward to. anymore. If i have to bear with people spitting on me, laughing at me, giving me condesending gaze with glee just because i am not good enough, i rather not live to experience it. I think 21 years of these is more than enough, i'm quite surprise that i actually tolerated it for that long, not that my tolerance level is getting any higher. Well, maybe if you minus my infant/toddler years where i have no memory of anything, it'd be about 16 years of pain.

Funny why for most times, i dont remember being happy. like truely happy. Its strange how these things got eased out of my memory and never got back.

Maybe they got lost when people who made it, forget it.

2007-01-07T18:30:00.000+08:00

Mum's home-baked Tiramisu cake! No cake can beat hers!

I only wish i can have a photo of my family and me with this cake, like those birthday pictures people usually take, but i guess we dont have this practice anymore.. but i always hope birthday after birthday that i can have one. I hope i can have one next year then!

Happy Birthday to me...?

2007-01-06T10:45:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to me... I am 21. But i dont get what is the big fuss about it actually, it didnt really feel any special or what. it feels like any normal birthday or even a usual day in fact. But i guess one of the surprise gifts i had was a hand-made birthday card from Janet Oh Chin Hui- a person who NEVER makes nor write any cards and who still owe me a postcard from J2 A'levels 3 Years ago... and i actually frame up her card, really!

Oh Chin Hui's card.

This is the cake Eliza bought me! So sweet and small and cute~ i ate it all up myself.. with MA taking 2 bites.
This is the cake the cell group got for me, reminds me of an alter but then we used only 1 candle in the end and we didnt light up any coz there was no lighter..

This year is one year i got so many cakes for my birthday while most birthdays in my teens i had none...

Didnt post up my mum's home-baked tiramisu, yet. That too, was quite a surprise.

And yes. I watched my 1st R21 show ytd, BORAT is funny. I was nearly not allowed till i argued that i was just a day to 21 and 1 day aint going to make any big difference in my thinking or whatsoever.. she relented in the end. Thank God or i'd have wasted the tickets. Lucky Quanju, he was the YOUNGER one yet he escaped. I guess size does makes a difference.

Yeah. I can vote now. Singapore had better give me some Singapore shares to offset the tax hike.

2007-01-03T20:37:00.000+08:00

Welcome to the 3rd day of 2007 where i woke up with a burning sensation on my left ear. the pain was so sharp and deep that it jerked me awake. Lo and behold! i took a peek at the mirror at 6 in the morning only to realise the stud has disappeared. The ear lope has swell to the size of a 5-cent coin.. only it is not flat. its fat.

where was the stud!??

It was embedded deep into the flesh of my ear lope as the lope swell to a mammoth size, the tiny gap left by the stud could no longer contain its bursting enegry and hence it enleashed itself, eating through my flesh.

yuck.

It was painful as hell even as the doc took it out. it was a good 30min process where i was given 3 injections of local anaesthetic. but, it couldnt numb the area and i could still feel the excruciating pain of the trudging and pulling of the stud from my blood/pus-filled flesh. Not to mention that i could still hear the sugergical tools clinking against each other as they try to dig for the embedded stud. it felt as if someone was drilling a nail into my ear lope, and after it was taken out, the all that grusome blood, pus and pieces of flesh can be seen stuck to the base of the stud.. hmm i think i wont load it here coz i never know if any of you might be just eating your favorite tomato spagetti because it really looks like leftover spagetti stuck on a fork.

Below was what my normal ear looked like...

part (1)

good ear

2007-01-03T20:36:00.000+08:00

The ballooned infected ear. its cleaned and the stud was painfully taken out. enlarged to see -- not for the faint hearted.

bad ear

2006-12-25T14:27:00.000+08:00

[What i truely want...]

i'll be 21 in 2 weeks. every1 has been asking 'what do you want for ur 21st birthday?'

my mum said, "think carefully what you want for your 21st birthday." without even looking at me in the eyes. she said it like a warning. she said it like it was such a chore to have a daughter to teach 21. She missed the sadness she'd have seen in my eyes.

If only they truely know what i want.

If only they would see what's good in me. Even if i have none, it'd help if they would just stop focusing on my flaws.

This is what i truely want.

2006-10-12T18:03:00.000+08:00

Its interesting how everything that happens seems to be useful to my studies of communication.

well, life is about communication. There isnt anything that isolates itself from it. Even if one were to shut up and not want to communicate, that itself is a kind of communicate.
"You cannot not communicate"- damn i forgot who said that..

201 is useful, surprisingly. I never thought the history of communication could be so applicable to everyday life.

My sis's little "saga" happened to be quite an interesting study. Why do people want to read her blog intentionally to get hurt? only to reply at her tagboard to "get back" and "defend" when they could just ignore and be happy? After all, its just a blog?

Those comments i put to stir thing up - that is another interesting point. An outsider whom they dont know or dont really know and have absolutely no relation to, my comments have stirred up a somewhat childish response- well, it might be typical of an 18-year-old but its no doubt, really interesting to see how things could build up and observe the things they consciously and unconsciously ignore.

Despite being called a secondary school girl, we still know that the only level lowers than them was secondary school and primary school- yet that reponse obviously came from the lack of their self-confidence. That is another area of interest, how the masking of one's identity could occur.

And of coz they reminded me the secondary days of arguements vs the current tensions from JC-Uni life. Of coz there is still the fear of being identified while still wanting to spurt insults- what they dont seem to be conscious of is that, they are kinder than they seem to be despite trying to be mean.

Dont you rather get hurt in your face than to be backstabbed in the cruest manner you ever know?

I shall refrain from taggin her blog now- its surprising how much you can study from just a small commotion. They will grow up soon.

2006-10-10T08:05:00.000+08:00

ok being the only one in the LT now i have the luxary of visiting my little sis's ultra-entertaining chatbox entries. In case you're wondering why am i the only one - my dad drives me to school making me always the 1st one to reach since i can only be there 1h before class which entitles me to join the Super-Kiasu-Come-to-school-to-chop-seats club.

Yeah club. That wasnt so much of an interesting word till lately, this word club has come to invade my time endlessly.

Well for one, the Ouran High School Host Club has been totally addictive. Its mix and mash of cutesy-cool-collected characters never failed to entertain me with its funny lines.

Of Coz, next, LO and BEHOLd! is the trival wadishface club from my sis's school. OMG. I cant believe the people there are stupid! well, i have met dumb people, but i never thought people actually admit so openly that they are dumb and are proud of it. This, is another form of entertainment for me.

Written by someone nicknamed 'Loti' (whoever loves calling himself/herself 'bread' is funny haha) "Its not the club having no reputation, its u being oblivious to any clubs i presume. Which i would say is, pretty, 'brainless' ". Quoting "brainless" from a previous writer, Mary ann who said that the wadhisface club is full of brainless people with no "reputation" to uphold in the 1st place.

i diagress: Sorry, but i always think that people who think so highly of themselves w "reputation" is kinda cheesy no?

Well, the his/her pt is somewhat really fun to comment.
1) the presumption is wrong- wad do u define as club? (haha ok the thought of it makes me laugh again) its hardly impossible to not know any club if its put so liberally.
2) being oblivious to any club is "brainless" OMG! that "loti" seemed to be somewhat a deprived child.. living a world of his/her own. Well, such innocence and naivety, so sweet dont ya think?

pity pity.

Wells, i have wasted enough time on this- seriously if it werent so entertaining to read her lines, i wouldn't have even spend my precious time on it. ahhh.. His/her oh-so-innocent lines really made my day! what fun!

2006-10-05T20:28:00.001+08:00

Here's a few nice shots of us in town.. doing our CS 226 project. It has been a very stressful week, deadlines are back to back and its driving me nuts. i dont even have time to play my online game - that is not an obligation of coz, though it often seemed so.

I hate Info Lit module. Seriously, Brendan should just choke on a fishball and die. He is the most assholic professor i have ever met. He is also the reason why we should make the film "Bredan MUST die" and he is every reason why there is suffering in the world.

anyways. too stressed out this week. glad we get to take some nice photos for work and this is the best shot of the day:

Award Wining shot

okok. We're not lesbian, well it hardly looks like a lesbian shot though. Cheers to Mary ann And I, Best friends since 11!

2006-10-05T20:28:00.000+08:00

sparkly

2006-10-05T20:27:00.000+08:00

friends forever!

2006-08-16T21:48:00.000+08:00

Well Desktop publishing. Assignment.. if my Name is a brand, how would it be?
I wish i have more artistic talents.. unfortunately.. it seems pretty limited.

Bored.. with myself!!

2006-07-25T20:51:00.000+08:00

there in comes the end of my long holidays where i live life as if i am frozen in time- forever slacking and doing nothing, thinking and rethinking and meditating on the works of life or what IS life. As my brain rusts and my muscles turn into stone- i cant help but wonder what has university done to me? I seem to have age tremendously over 3 months, less analytical, less alert, less active. Why, i seem to be dying without fun. Yes we all are dying arent we? Each sec each min that passes is like a tall candle burning brightly as the wax melt the candle shorter and shorter till 1 day, there will be no more wax to support the tiny flame.

Where will we be? Heaven. Well be saved and go to heaven, to be with our creater and loved ones. That is if, our loved ones are saved too.

2006-06-20T15:51:00.000+08:00

Heya Alvin will be glad to see this updated post thinking "finally.."

I am typing this because i am super bored in School. Let me explain why. Though i've brought my laptop to entertain me.. alast! I think every tom, dick and harry is using the wireless, making the wireless connection UBER slow. Thus i cant d/l any anime nor play WOW. I am left with only the computers in school - which i use to register for my Semester 1.

That brings me to the next point- WHAT AM I DOING IN SCH? Its HOLIDAYS!! Ok simply due to the typical trait of all Singaporeans- Kiasuism. Mary ann and i went to school early in the morning just to 'book' a computer to get the fastest acess to the uni's intranet so as to get our desired slots.

Yayness.

we both got the same nice timetable. Why dont i sound excited when i say this? bahhh its coz i am Hungry and i mean.. really hungry that i can eat a whole cow all by myself. Been camping in school since 10am! and its 4pm already. Some stuff just dont load the way they are supposed to! we're waiting for Laura's slot to be confirmed, @#$@%^% NTU has a really slow way of loading things. and its Nanyang TECHNOLOGICAL university..

ok since i have nothing to do, i decided to just write smth here.. just to kill time.. and yes every single word written here is due to utter bordeom..

But, i'm happy i get 4 day week again! NOW i am happy..

2006-06-13T20:23:00.000+08:00

Heya i've already slacked for 1 month plus and i have no intention to work still.. simply because i am gonna learn driving! and of coz i am plain lazy? i dont wanna waste my holidays on working since i've have to work immediately after i graudate..

Anyway I am getting an Automatic Car Lisence.. "nooo whhyy Auto? Manual is better!" yeah yeah i heard u. Simply because :

i am really idiotic at such things, i really hope to get a license to drive a bumber car only.
its less costly, considering the less number of lessons & the potential amt of failures i may have
i dont intend to drive anything else except an auto car...

Ok that said. its only my BTT anyway.. i've heard its idiot-proof.. but hey! didnt i just told u i am an idiot in these? i may just prove that statement wrong.

See those pictures of the kid i posted b4? yeah that is the baby i babysit and see EVERYDAY. He is a naughty brat. So naughty sometimes i feel i can just kick him out of the window and bring peace to the world. He can be an angel though - once in a blue blue moon.

I'm getting bored of the online game i've been playing for a year now. World of Warcraft. Its getting boring.. like bo-ring Boring. I wish Quanju has more time or can end early instead of the sucky time he works now. then we can go out or fish or just laze around. Actually Singapore is a pretty boring place to be in. Same old Shopping centers, same old trains, same old HDBs, same old lifs, same old Sentosa, same old brand new beach. Nothing extremely interesting out of the Ordinary. Unless of coz i step out and spend money to learn something new. But basketball has so far been my love, something i still miss alot.. Something that has passed and never will come back. Something that will remain as but perhaps, a fading memory.

I wish i still have my piano. Each time i visit some1 with a piano i get reminded of how foolish i was to give up Piano. Worse, to sell it away. It was something i regret till now. I can hardly play a decent piece now, bits and pieces of notes here and there. Music only my heart can hear, but never physically sounded out. How rusty are my fingers!

Life seems more colourful when i was younger. not that i am that old now, in fact i am suppose to be nearing my prime. but things seem just so dull and boring. i need to learn something...

I wonder why my mum get pissed at me (and the whole family) when she is irritated at the baby. It just makes things worse for every1 isnt it? Like huh? its not even my fault that the baby is naughty- very bad start of the day at times. I think its not healthy for a woman her age to be stressing over a baby- after all the hardship of bringing 3 daughters up. She shld be resting more, and by doing that she will be less angery, less impatient, more cheerful, and thus, less scolding for me. In all, that will bring more peace to our home, instead of all the frustrations going on around a naughty brat.

When i am a mother, when i have my own kids, i will wanna stay at home to look after them, that way, they wont feel so insecure like how tt baby is feeling right now. Of course, when i am married and have my own house, i will have a piano.

2006-04-20T21:18:00.001+08:00

guai lan!!!

2006-04-20T21:18:00.000+08:00

oops

2006-04-17T17:55:00.000+08:00

halfway done thru hell...

Describe the strategies adopted by Channel News Asia that may be adopted by Radio Television Brunei without compromising its charter of public service broadcasting?

huh????

its really ominous that it rained a storm after my paper. Like telling me "yeah you really screwed this up". It was flooding all the way from the examination hall right up to the bus stops and from the interchange to the MRT station and it was so horrible i decided i wanna be at home ASAP. Hence instead studying diligently in the library like i should, i am here typing this sad piece of blog entry.

Morning wasnt really good either, i felt so light-headed and sick that i forgot to bring my jacket, pencil case and my seating no.. bad start. And this, i found out after i reached the MRT station, the thought of going back just annoys me because it was HOT and i was perspiring in my new Elmo shirt and the overhead bridge escalator is faulty!

Thank God i had my dearie with me, he came to look after me in the morning and to send me off to school! So he had the great honour of running back to my blk to get all those missing stuff.

now i feel hungry, sleepy and lazy.. its still raining so it puts me in a dreamy mood. and did i mention hungry and sleepy? oh yeah i did, now its making me forgetful.

2006-04-15T20:58:00.000+08:00

Save me from this HELL!!!!!!!

bah!! i HATE EBM, damn it. i hate regulatory frameworks and i really dont care if other SEA has a free media or not. i simply dont. I've been reading non-stop today, experiencing LDMR with the wth-readings and still i dont rem a single damn thing. its so unfair to be testing memory work. Each time i face those 103 notes, each time my brain shuts down automatically, as if saying "ewww.. that's so not my thing" and leaves me in a sea of wad-the-hells.

Tomorrow is Easter Sunday, i know we should be glad that We're saved from Jesus's resurrection, but i somehow feel so bought down by all this load of shit. Seriously! i never studied anything as BORING as what i am doing now! NEVER!

I rather study CHINESE!!!!!!!

See how bad this is??

Omg now i really miss Chinese, i rather write the same characters for 'xi zi' and write a dozen 'zhuo wen' (chinese essays) than read this whole chunk of WTH notes!

2006-04-13T10:10:00.000+08:00

Okie- this is in response to my dear Sandra's jealousy! muahaha now dont be jealous la, got two big photos of us all! (shessh i think i posted the bball one way back when we took the photo la!) anyway u can always find pic of us in my previous posts!

Ruth's Wedding

2006-04-13T10:09:00.000+08:00

saints basketball 2003/4

2006-04-08T21:00:00.004+08:00

Save me from this HELL!!!!!!!

bah!! i HATE EBM, damn it. i hate regulatory frameworks and i really dont care if other SEA has a free media or not. i simply dont. I've been reading non-stop today, experiencing LDMR with the wth-readings and still i dont rem a single damn thing. its so unfair to be testing memory work. Each time i face those 103 notes, each time my brain shuts down automatically, as if saying "ewww.. that's so not my thing" and leaves me a sea of wad-the-hells.

Tomorrow is Easter Sunday, i know we should be glad that We're saved from Jesus's resurrection, but i somehow feel so bought down by all this load of shit. Seriously! i never studied anything as BORING as what i am doing now! NEVER!

I rather study CHINESE!!!!!!!

See how bad this is??

Omg now i really miss Chinese, i rather write the same characters for 'xi zi' and write a dozen 'zhuo wen' (chinese essays) than read this whole chunk of WTH notes!

2006-04-08T21:00:00.003+08:00

bleah, very 1st exam of my 2nd semester.. HL803, Cinematic Pleasures and Question of Identity. Cinematic pleasures, yes, identity, no. I'm kinda disapppointed that i couldnt do the question involving my Favorite Movie - In The Mood For Love.

In The Mood For Love, a MUST-SEE movie. a cantonese Movie directed by Wong Kah-Wai, it relates how a couple-played by Tony Leong (omg! he is DAMN SEXY!) and Maggie Cheung- found out their own spouses' affair with each other. Themes of loneliness, longing for the past, longing for love, longing for what they desire, all brought about through Nat King Cole's Sensual songs and Micheal Galasso's hunting, slow romantic music. A creative way of portraying erotism of the couple's physical attraction to each other without the use of blatant bare-it-all-sex like those in a typical Hollywood film. and the music and songs - heavenly to your ears.

Sigh.

If there is any comfort, it will be my 2nd favorite - Gentlemen Prefers Blondes. a Marilyn Manroe Movie, sexy, cool and yeah.. feminist. I love feminist films, if there was any identification in it- it'd be that i am a feminist too. Writing an essay talking about feminism in the film wasnt so bad after all. Besides, i love it when they show our girl power, shame to all the MCPs out there! - they can go suck an egg! (insult quoted from Mary Ann)

and there was the most boring essay i've ever written (on films and art)- 12 Storeys. Eric Khoo really brought his messages across from the way Singapore was portrayed in the 3 heartlander families. Even writing about this film came across as boring as the meritocracy system and its beaucracies. Talk about the elitist attitudes, the repressed "perfect citizen" and yeah apathetic youth. BORING! Perhaps the only exciting aspect of this essay was the issue of Incest in a conservative society- but that has little or nothing to do with the rest of my essays on the boring system.

now i've stuck in revision for Electronic Broadcast Media. Man, doesn't the mention of it just scares you? It sounds boring, looks boring, IS boring. Media ownership regulations on SEA was the LAST thing i wanna do.. What other better things to do other than reading those?

ta da! u see me blog dont u? that explains it.

2006-04-08T21:00:00.002+08:00

I wonder if its just lazyiness of is it a syntom of Exam stress and lack of sleep. But i did a calculation of my sleeping hours and it diligently adds up to at least 8h.. but i always always feel like sleeping in the afternoons when i am supposed to revise.. or i tend to daydream or doze off completely and come to blogger to blog to you...

but today i felt better, at least more awake.. yesterday was not all fulfilling in my revision but that's cuz i spent 3h destressing- it helps that my darling came and delivered some feel-good chocolates and my favorite Meji milk; he's my personal masseur and facial therapist - all of a heavenly combination. Its unlikely that any average guy would suddenly bring goodies to you just coz you're stressed and massage your back and peel the blackheads off your face before applying facial mask for you.

So very sweet of him :)

and..

and i found out a secret .. back 3 years ago - before we got attached.

2006-04-08T21:00:00.001+08:00

(continued from the previous...)

So poor hungry late me was punished for my impatience by slipping onto a Huge puddle of water, a puddle so big it could be a swimming pool for toddlers, a puddle just beside the bus 179 which i was about to board. A spectacular sight to see me break-dancing in it - making splashes high up to my knee and soaking my own laptop cover and wallet. With my PRADA wallet still dripping wet with those dirty ground-rain water i scanned my ezi-link card as people rubbed their eyes to confirm that i wasnt scanning a sponge instead. I looked like i had just come up from a swimming pool - only that i was half-immersed in it.

and it was late.. late afternoon.

Upon reaching school. yay. finally my destination: ulu NTU. Then Mary ann was already there, waiting patiently for me. Beside her was the most devestating sight:

ACRC Library CLOSED

uh huh.

2006-04-08T21:00:00.000+08:00

ahh as u can see, i've done some editing on my blogskin.. yeah it looks off, no? i dont care anymore, its not exactly fun to look at HTML scripts u know? i'm just glad it didnt block any major things..

Today is a HORRIBLE DAY. HOrrible like there is no tomorrow!

Woke up on the wrong side of bed- which is funny because my bed is positioned against the wall, which means i always get up on the same side each morning- but anyway today is pecuiliar...

It was raining cats and dogs, it might as well rain frogs. and yeah i was late for gp study with Mary ann (see how much effort i put in to study!??). I mean what's new? i was always late for everything. but no, this time, its as if i was to be punished for all the times i was late.

To understand better, u need to know the context: I was having the thing of the month - hurhur great time of the month - and i was suffering from the painful treatments of my warts - yes, warts on my toes! Cursed be the one who spread them to me!

And lo and behold! I forgot to bring extra pads and plasters for both the issues mentioned above- as it is, i got to rush back to get them. i mean, its ok, i'll be an hour late the most.

But,

3 irritating aunties have to pissed me off. As it is, it was already hard enough to walk with a heavy bagful of books and a 14-inch laptop, balancing with feet that is one-toe- handicapped - but each one of them took turns to step on my poor slippers, enjoying my awkward trips and oblivious to the pain on my wounds (i mean why would they care? they are pea-brained evil creatures afterall). As they each did their tick with gleeful joy, i curse their marketing will be maggots-infested and perhaps they would be sorry when some1 stepped on their fat feet and cause them to fall on their own eggs and it will be such a pathetic sight that The New Paper will come and make a story of "Humpty Aunty Breaks her own Eggs" and all the kids will sing:

Humpty Aunty pisses us all

Humpty Aunty had a great fall

All the government's officers and

all the medics and spectators

could not stop laughing and wishes she falls again

Well, it was not the worse, because i was starving, i thought of buying food to satisfy my immerse hunger - perhaps this will make my day better. How wrong i was! Some idiot cut my Queue and got my food, and i have to wait for 15 min for a FAST FOOD and do i have to keep repeating myself that i was already late?? I was not in my most patient mood to smile and nod and be happy that people who came later and served earlier. If there was any comfort, i walked off without paying and without any food of course. I rather eat the air.

2006-04-03T21:50:00.000+08:00

I realised this is my 7th post this year..but its better than none i suppose..

I dont know if i've chosen the right course, i am not sure if i like it that much, its fun but some parts of it is boring too.. like Communication Research.. it aint all that fun.. especially when Mary ann and i are in the different groups.. There are weird people in my school who have sex like there is no tomorrow, well, call me a moralist, i think its wrong.. or just not right.. to me or rather it clashes with my lifestyle. Some just smokes their life away. There are faces with so many different kinds of masks that they seem to make SCI larger than it is.

Gone are the joyful days from JC, the laughter of my classmates and good friends - Chu Kwek Di Pok Ha - my teamates and yeah even my teachers, crazy as they are. Its been a year since i left JC, but still this new chapter of my life has been taking very long to get adjusted, to the new environment, new friends, new stuff. and new is not exactly all nice and fluffy like you'll expect in the NTU New Undergraduate Experience (NTU NUE). I found that i am too sheltered and i want to continue to be sheltered, to be naive, to still be innocent and spoon fed.

I have more time in Uni than i had in JC. Yet it was unfulfilling, it was close to empty- save for the moments with Mary ann, Joanne and Fara.. but it was pretty much empty other than that. I know its no use living in the past, but uni life have been so far, disappointing.

and i hate CS 105.

2006-03-20T18:37:00.000+08:00

Its Monday blues, Monday blues made me skip 104 Tutorials.. and Chopra's lecture.. Monday blues make me late for school, Monday blues made me waste money on cab fare to get to school on time.. Monday blues..

bah.. its MOnday and its so Blue.

2006-02-04T19:30:00.002+08:00

I'm pretty irritated that i have dumb people around me who keeps reminding me how smart i am. i mean, i dont really need to be reminded of that.

I'm sorry, i am not offended by such dismal comments. I guess your 3 pages long Hate mail werent enough.. or rather, I just cant be bothered. Besides, i have too much common sense in me to stop and notice the Insignificant in my life.

i thought i shld do my dear friends a favour by publishing this entertaining piece of hate mail:

Eunice

Prof Lee said the maximum pages that the report can reach are 8 pages. That’s why on our side, we are trying to push the details back to the appendix, leaving at most 4 pages for the main content for each concept. But the nudist resort already takes up 10 pages in the main content. Yes, I do agree that the content of the report is very important, but do bear in mind that Prof Lee emphasized it as a “tutorial assignment”, not a “project”. Certain professors penalize on students who do not follow strictly to the specified number of pages for the assignments. So it may not necessarily be “the more we put in, the higher grades we get”. If he sets such a standard for us (4-6 pages) he must have his reason for doing it. And it’s not like we didn’t approach him for his opinion; he also said 10 pages for each item is way too long.

Content wise, I agree that our part lacks some elaboration of some terms. However I feel that with regards to the promotional strategies, we have already given quite a lot of information. We can give a whole load of details if you want, but the main point is, Prof Lee might not want such a detailed assignment. If he had wanted it, he wouldn’t set the page limit to 6 and extended it for us to 8. In the first place, the number of people in a group should be 3-4 people, and you added Siting in. Fine, we respect that, but personally I feel that’s unfair because if the report is to be detailed, a single member can certainly churn out pages of details. If you are going to say, 5 people should have more pages of work done, then I have to say that it wasn’t meant to be 5 people in a group right from the start. There are groups in the class with only two people and yet we have five.

In my opinion, there are some things not properly formatted in your part of the report. For example, the first page has such a big blank that could have been filled with information. There are also several punctuation errors and spelling errors. I’ve highlighted them. As for the appendix, the proper way of writing an appendix is to start a new appendix on a fresh page. To save pages, what can be done is to put two sets of information in the same appendix label. The format of your report is also not standardized. For example, if you wish to put the referring of appendices in italics then it should be standardized. Otherwise, no matter how detailed the report is, the reader will be confused over the overload of content and the messy format.

Throughout the whole process of getting our report done, you have given me the impression that you do not respect us as your members, with the exception of Siting. You have subconsciously adapted the role of leader in the group, and you have imposed some of your ideas on us, which we, on the other hand, feel it was not right. You could have asked for our opinions, which apparently you didn’t. We did not reflect it back to you, partly because it was during our work progress, and we do not wish to have any conflicts internally. However, there’s a limit to our tolerance. Time and again you have referred to us as “the others”. Probably because we have not worked with you before that you don’t really know us. However, I feel that we are not being respected. Initially, we listen to your ideas and accepted them. But as the report progressed, our work and efforts are continuously refuted by you, simply because our work didn’t reach your expectations. You have to understand that the report is a collaborative work, and we do not have to obey your instructions as if we are your subordinates. Group discussions should mean we listen to everyone’s ideas and make decisions as a group.

You put in effort on your side of the project, we put in ours. Maybe not the way you like it, maybe not right from the start, but we did it in the end. You should learn to respect the way others work, or no project members are going to stay with you. Even if you think we’re really in the wrong, put it politely. If you dare, tell us in our face, don’t always put it sarcastically in an email and ask Alvina to ‘email the others’. However, I must say that I doubt you checked your own part, because of the mistakes made in your supposed ‘final copy’. Please edit your own side of the project before you come and edit ours. You can try politely saying that maybe there’s a lack of details where and where, but not demanding a change in such an impolite way. AND it is RUDE to change it yourself without asking our permission (which is what you are doing right at this moment). We put in our effort, we did our best. Just because it does not reach your fucking expectations doesn’t mean that we did not try our best.

Please learn some respect for other people and the work they put in their effort to do. I weep at the fact that you have not learnt a singe bit of RESPECT in your past 20 years. BOOHOO… Maybe you haven’t been able to earn much, from the way you treat others.

As such, we might consider detaching from the current group for the other coming assignments. You might feel offended after reading this, but that is how we felt when you exerted your dominance towards the assignment on us. We feel that there is a need to reflect our feelings, hence the letter was written. But no matter what, thanks for being part of the group, and thanks for the effort you’ve put into the assignment.

Xue Lin and Yunxin

Oh wake up pls! and stop laughing! We all know such people are made for entertainment. I guess some people just dont grow up, and personally, i do pity them for their sorry plight.

i had replied in the most diplomatic way ever, politcally correct. besides i really dont see any need to defend myself over such silly remarks:

Dear Xue lin and Yunxin,
I'm sorry that you feel this way. Dont worry, i am not offended or anything. I guess its just a clash of work ethnics. Thanks for pointing out our stylistic errors, we've corrected it before we receive this mail. And yes, we dont mind splitting too, all the best in your next assignment.

Eunice Ho

Honestly,

Cry More . Coz no one cares.

p.s well, i'm sorry that their hideously badly written hate mail was taking up so much of the space.

2006-02-04T19:30:00.001+08:00

[World of WARcraft]

I've grown accustomed to you, blog. yes, you. The neglected one, and casted away, the almost oblivion to me. Yes why have i come on and talk to you about a subject you have no knowlegde of nor interest in? Nor does my potential readers for that matter. A topic which bores you, which is absolute greek to you.

I have no idea, i guess it is because you dont interrupt me. You dont talk back nor do you disagree. Silence means consent. and i take that for comfort.

This World of Warcraft is seemingly becoming a World where Wars of Self and Others come. Where i feel a sense of losing my freedom in doing what i have first came to play for. I have been lost to Responsiblilty where Obligation bugs you like bees to honey. Isnt it amazing that such obligations and feelings can be carried over online, in the mist of all the nicks and hidden identities, there lies a true bond of human relations. Where you feel guilty or happy or sad over something you did or did not do for a person whom you have never met?

This is so messy. i cannot even sort in out in words. bah! but raiding everyday of my week is pointless.. yes no doubt i do get thrills doing some raids (i.e MC and ZG) i dont see why i should do more than what pleases me. As to the Law Of Diminshing Marginal Returns (LDMR) it is not, in my case, enjoyable to raid 7 days a week. it goes down after a peak, and my peak happens to be.. not so high. i am commited to what i have choosen and i should not feel obliged in anyway. (pardon me people, i'm sorry if i confuse you over some terms here, or seem to make no sense) I guess i am making no sense, but bear with me as i make sense out of nonsense. My feelings of obligation stems from a seemingly well-covered emotional blackmail. Take it that you have to buy a package in order to get one of the 2 things from that package. and none of the two is each sold separately. I'm blabbing. i'm sorry. but it doesnt matter as long as these make sense to me.

because i am not you.
and you are not me.

2006-02-04T19:30:00.000+08:00

[ SAVE my DYING blog!]

Since doing a research project about blogging, i've been obliged to visit this old dying blog. Perhaps this post will only extend the painful suffering of its existence, i do not know, and am not sure.

From what i've done in this rush-work of findings, most people blog pretty frequently and the top 5 reasons for blogging are:

1. Documentation of One's life
2. Providing Commentaries and opinions
3. Expressing deeply felt emotions
4. Working out ideas (wad? i dont quite get this one..)
5. Forming communities

they kinda miss out the one aspect one seldom or never would want to admit.
Exibitionistic nature of a human being.
The desire to show others your personality or character (mostly the nice ones of coz, or the desire image you want to portray) Ah well, i admit i am doing this out of this one nature which no one seem to admit.

But the very reason why this exibition is dying because of my pure laziness and handicap in any tech-like stuff (ie. my post gets deleted when i accidently pressed the wrong key or the pictures i posted didnt come out for reasons i'd never know...)

and ah well, as most people keep in contact with friends through blogging, sadly, my friends know the futility of it in my blog. If you have not already realised, most of the post are mourning for the seemingly up-coming death of this blog, or if you're lucky u get to read the satirical posts of my working days - do not be fooled, those were the salad days of this blog.

Anyway back to the point - my blog has nothing much about the updates of the life of its writer, which is me of coz. (oh gosh! who else?) and i really wonder who bothers to read my life if i write about it. Life in Sinagapore is like a routine, its so mechanical and predictable that its pointless to write what i did today or yesteray or any other day because its the same. well, almost.

i guess i can put up a timetable of my day? Then perhaps the gals will know when to ask me out for shopping.

argh! What's wrong with me? I talk to myself non-stop in here, like i'm being sucked in a vaccum and talking and listening to - my own echo. Cant i post anything more intersting than this??!!

2006-01-19T16:39:00.001+08:00

Project: Advertising for Nudist Colony.

Any 1 has any ideas how to go about doing that?

Nudist - often known as Naturalist.. or are they? The embracing of one's body.

It weird to see naked people, or we, Asian society is more or less embarrassed by the glance of a naked body.

Yet, now it is my ultimate job to market it. I wonder what will happen if i implement having a Nudist Resort in our up and coming IR project? Would that not attract more tourists? After all, its rare to see ASIAN Nudists, the yellow skin and dark jet black hair - aint we exortic enought to boost our declining tourism industry?

For all we know, people may rather part with their clothes than money.

What say YOU?

2006-01-19T16:39:00.000+08:00

[Catchin up with Age ]

Doesnt that title sound old.. or make ME sound old..
or maybe i am?! i've finally hit a "2" in front of my age.. Happy Birthday! this time no food poisoning as supposed to the last.

I dont know where to start, my dears.
I'm sorry to disappoint you each time you come to view my way backdated blog.. i usually have alot to say, but i just say it out loud that i feel no need to type it out or i am just too lazy to do so.. or.. its just too much to type.. ie. like i speak faster than i type? My thoughts overtake my clumsy fingers with ease. much apologies.

right now, its weird how i seem to blog with an audience in mind, even though i'll never know who actually bothers to come?!

This semester's timetable is so much better. 3 and a half day week, Friday offs! What more could i ask for? Discipline maybe? to fully make use of these free days instead of sleeping them away.

I guess i am drifting away.. i dont know why. Or, perhaps i do, but i just dont want to admit it.
I am writing less.. i read the bible less.. i go to church less.. My life seems incomplete.. but i just feel helpless about the seemingly hopeless situation i am in. I am in stuck in the forces of opporsites - in a limbo world..

I wonder why i seem so lost.. I miss the security of fixed timetables and classmates i used to have. to have the school adminstrators do every planning for you. To have long trainings and painful essays to complete. To live the life of a careful student who enjoys climing over school gates for cheap thrills. To wear a school uniform which so defines that very security.

I dont want to grow up..

2005-09-27T00:24:00.000+08:00

"... and I forget

why i have come so far.

A masterstroke of oversight has landed me

in the middle of nowhere, an interim

of lost connections, an unplanned pause

between journeys, the cold desert air

gripping the old bones of the mind"

2005-09-26T23:33:00.000+08:00

[Caught up]

Shessh.. been ages since my last update.. as usual.

Really caught up in too many things, perhaps, being too busy isnt good.. But. I like being busy, it keeps me occupied, makes my time passes fast. Yet, its passing too fast and i wish i'm not that busy. However, i'm known to entertain myself even if i have nothing to do and i seldom ever get restless.

Workaholic? No. I dont work all the time. But i am still so busy.

I like being preoccupied, but i somehow miss being bored and having nothing to do. I never ran out of things to do. I'm aging fast yet growing slow. If only i can make it more balanced.. but i guess i can never do..

What's up with Degeue and the whole authoritarian model? I'm so slow with news. Need to catch up with lots of stuff. Aplentiful of work yet it seems not so - the intangibility of it all. I'm so used to schdules and organization. Yet i'm experiencing the irony of an unorganised tight schdule. Paradox upon paradox. What a complicated life!

My game card expired - a sign that i should delicate more time to other aspects of my life. Has that game really been eating into other areas? I hope not. but i guess in some ways or another, it has. Right now i face this challenge of holding back from renewing it, to take a 2 week break from WOW.. I wonder if i'd succeed.

If i do, i'll reward myself by playing it everyday for 2 weeks.. o_O

Actually i think i will succeed. COZ my MOUSE on my com isnt working!! So even if i renew my game card, i STILL cant use my com, much less play.. despite being a CS student, i'm sadly, still a techno-idiot... i mean, how in the world do you change a mouse?? Or reinstall it? My dad isnt in Singapore.. TT so i'm so stuck with a "malfunctioned" mouse which windows do not regconise! argh..!!!!

and.. still have fliming and a fancy website to create.. and 2 media presentations- what's cool? To pretend to be Diana Ser hosting a show like Get Rea!
I'm running out of ideas and its driving me crazy!

If only i have 48h a day.. i could do more..i could complete more.
But if that day ever comes, i doubt i'd ever have enough. Buzy O' moi.

2005-08-04T16:25:00.000+08:00

[ IT for the Media ]

IT for media isnt really as bad as i thought. Though a complete IT-idiot, i managed to, with much efforts and trials and errors, to create a pic of myself for the school net discussion. It started with a picture taken by our tutor at the start of the class and here's what i did to myself..

...not very impressive but its good enough for me to use it on board discussions. Anyway, the lesson today was just to learn how to use Mac desktop.. which confused me totally.. imagine my shock when i accidentally pressed a key and the CD drive eject in response! It was like..
hey, the keyboard's too big, no space to put my file, So i cautiously put the keyboard away, accidentally pressing a key and "boom!" the CD drive ejected out of the deadly silence..

And yeah.. when i asked some1 "where's the 'return' key", he stared at me like i had a mushroom growing out of my face, and said as-a-matter-of-factly,

"its the 'enter' key"

2005-08-02T23:57:00.000+08:00

been a looong time since i last blog..

been really hooked on WOW.. its a wonderful game, but it kinda confines me to my own cell and is wholely responsible for my gaining weight and unsightly cellulite! yuck! so yep, i've shrunk to a pale ghastly-looking fat bloke who do all IT geeks proud. No offence intended. bah!

anyway, School has started for me, if u wanna take a look at my same old brand new hostel room, pls click on Mary Ann's blog, its in there.. coz we share the same room! But pls note that anything messy is fully her side. -grinz-

so much to do, so little time. Yet here i am, feeling lost and insecure coz i have tons to do, yet none to do. I see other friends from other faculty like.. Econs, Business or Engineering, they have tutorials and work, like real, solid, tangible work to do while i sit down here, clueless abt mine. Not that i dont know that i must do anything, in fact, i know truely that i have things to do. But question is as to what? I've been given a project to complete.. Work for a community.. as to? AFA? NVC? i have no idea.. not many instructions were given, sometimes, none were given at all. Yet, we have assignments and projects glaring at us in eveNTUre.. its scary. Much like "here are what u shld get done before u graduate. Good luck" Yes, this overwhelming freedom doesnt come without the price of insecurity. A paradox. An oxymoron.

and i miss home.. i miss my mother, and my sisters (as irritating as they are, i still do..) I'd rather listen to Bonnie's crap abt some dude in her school or emily's whine abt her books than be alone in school.. okiz, not that alone, but i will, be each time Cam books out with Mary ann.. (-hint hint! MA) I guess the only fun part of staying in a Hostel is staying with Mary ann, which dosent make this experience indispensible coz its her who makes the company and experience and not the hostel persay.

so.. i guess.. i don't quite like my so called new found "independence." In fact, living in a dorm doesnt make u independent, u wonder why people say they are independent just coz they stay in one. It is, in my opinion, an utterly cliche thing to say, not to mention, shallow.

But that's a topic for another day..

nitez.

2005-06-04T21:20:00.000+08:00

[ life of an IT-nerd ]

I used to think tt people who spent the whole day at their computer are ultimate nerds who only respond to https, java scripts and errors.

Today, I lived like one.

Only today, I still dunno what's "http", "java scripts" or what was wrong with the errors. Today, I explored my new-found obsession- Photoshop and World of Warcraft. Let's not talk abt WOW now, it makes my blood boil. it takes 6h to d/l 12% of the game.Do i sound calm to you?DoI?doI?DOI??!Yes,ofcourseIdoBut in factI'mnot.justsopissed#$%&*#%@!

okok. -eunice, stop!-

Anyway, I'm really quite an IT-illiterate. I spent the WHOLE day on the com to come up with the 1st and 3rd photo. (the 2nd was done last night) I dun have alot of cartoons or background so i have to create them and believe me, I'm just clicking the buttons at random to see if they give any pleasant effect which i think is coolz.

-click- ah.. yes! this is nice.
-click- damn!! its gone!! oh no..!!
-click undo 3 times- oh no..!! no more undos!
-click click- ok. this looks acceptable.. Let's see wad 3D transform mean.. -click..click..- hmm..?! -click click?? click click click click!!!-

shit.

And thus explains why i took so long just to create 2 photos. Yeah, for those who know me, its no surprise.

Felt really goggy after being in front of the com for sooo loong.. I'm simply not a computer person.. but it feels good to have created something nice (to me..given my ultimate low-level skills and all) So here're moi

mAsteRpieCes!!

2005-06-04T20:44:00.001+08:00

KuanJoO as Cover Boi

2005-06-04T20:44:00.000+08:00

the sun, the sand the sea

2005-06-04T20:43:00.000+08:00

"little king"

2005-05-29T18:20:00.001+08:00

[ sOo HapPy! ]

yeah.. the above's title's kinda cliche.. arh. but who cares? I'm happy. That's all that matters? (i can hear MA's "yeah!!")

Today's fun fun fun. Though i was terribly LATE for meeting Mary Ann, she was really patient to wait for me.. coz i overslept- woke up at 12 noon when that's the exact time i'm supposed to meet her.. (and guess WHO set the time? me.) its a loooonngggg story of why-i-overslept and i shall cut it short by telling u guys that its coz I woke up at 7am to go marketing.

ahh. I make such a good housewife, dont I?

Anyway, we made bacon-less potato salad coz we were on tight budget- it wasnt tt bad though it would have been perfect with bacons.. but nah.. we are just too poor for that. Besides, we were eating too much JUNK food. Yesh. JUNK FOOD. juNk fOoD and more jUnK. and nope, we're not playing basketball anymore, so our waistline just expands like its nobody's business. And yesh..

I FEEL FAT!!!! nanananana...so fat! -clap! clap!- so fat! -clap! clap!- argh..

grow fat and be merry.---best done with MA (heh..-___-")
its true since we're so comfortable w each other and loves eating and eating and talking and eating when we have nothing to do. We eat to kill time.

We made Japanese Curry with Spaggetti for dinner too! it's delicious! (pls see MA's blog for pictures) it was a little watery but its still ok. MA's definitely improving in her cookery skills! haha.. We'll have so much fun cooking in hostel next time!

And guess WHAT? I'm so hooked on World of Warcraft tt i'm gg to MA's place to play it again and hopefully, i can borrow from QJ's sis this sunday..

A high-class taitai plays World of Warcraft.

2005-05-29T18:20:00.000+08:00

[a stranger's sorrow]

Between departure and arrival,

what is there? We are suspended

in a space capsule, communications all dead.

Its sad, disheartening- almost heartbreaking. Who are you? To think you have any right to voice your utter displeasure? Well, what can you expect from family genes? They replicate, dont you know? You thought you did well, didnt you? Well, you thought wrong. so wrong from the start.

From the moment you tried cooking for the family; from the moment you decided to do any 'dirty' housework by your kindness- you werent appreciated. You never was, never has been & never will be.

Not that you deserved to be appreciated-but in actual fact, you, perhaps, deserved to be scorned. Your dirtiness, sloppiness, laziness- they dont fit into a perfect structure of how a perfect family is to be run.To them, you are the epitome of these. O how They have tolerated you! And their patience- it is running thin. You should have expected it.

Too bad you didnt. Its just
Too Bad.

The girl in the portrait,
shows a stranger's face.
It does not match yous.

2005-05-16T19:41:00.000+08:00

[ girls- strange creatures of the world ]

Moi voice's SEXY. -cough- coz I'm losing it to Cough...

I'm beginning to get buzy again- and i like the spontaneity of it - going here, there in the last min, planning to get together again like of out the blue.. I love meeting all moi friends. and though money now flows in a one-way traffic, I'm still glad i quit moi boring disguesting mundane office job.

Been writing letters: but always forget to send... -___-"' (sorry guys!)

I really enjoyed moi day with Mary Ann - it was on a tuesday. 'been looong since i last went out with her, we always say we will, but it happens only once or twice a year. (coz of buzy buzy JC life) But not to worry now that we'll be in the same course and, hopefully in the same class as well. And I know we'll share the same dorm- so no worries abt that now! I'm so glad how we can still talk like we did in primary and secondary school- doesnt seem to have an end! Its good to have someone who shares the same feelings as u do- like how shitty NS is and what it is doing to our boyfriends. and yes, how JEALOUS we can get just to see our guy look at a girl he doesnt even know personally- yes, its a serious offence and it gets on our nerves.

And sometimes girls just feel sad and lonely for no reason. They are strange creatures- there can be a period of time when, though surrounded by ppl, their inner self will for some reason isolate itself from the whole self- that's when u feel extrememly lonely even though u're with everybody. It almost feels like the real you is invisible and u're just watching your character in a group of ppl talking and smiling to them but you cant actually connect to them or to urself in the screen to reach out to them; and neither can they reach out to the real you through your shadow amist them..you're just watching urself on screen, in slow motion, with no control over what happens- though u kinda know how things will turn out coz its pure etiquette and human behavior. (like how ppl ask "how are u?" and u say, "I'm fine, thank you"). The people are there, but not there.

It feels pretty weird- but that's how you'll feel lonely and then sad. And then for some reason, cry coz the world seems to ignore you and you seem to be reduced to just a mere shadow.

And its worse when your boyfriend isnt here with you.

That's when u have friends like Mary ann, who can do just a good job as your boyfriend to pull you out of this la la land.

we're strange, arent we?

2005-05-16T19:32:00.000+08:00

I'm finally FREE from bOndage! Fresh Air and coOl BreEze.. HERE I come. Tho i miss earning $$ so that i can spend. but nah. I can finally start doing what i like..

like..
LoOking After this little baby. Let me introduce Kayen PoOn, my cousin's baby son. He's only a few days old in here:

sleEp yAwnz

2005-05-16T19:30:00.001+08:00

oOh.. Brave New World..

2005-05-16T19:30:00.000+08:00

Act cOoL

2005-05-16T19:29:00.000+08:00

Bleah! Heheh

2005-05-10T20:59:00.000+08:00

Rain. How it is so in my heart. moOdy.
coz Dearie's still out field.

O Dreary dreary day!

How u make my mood so grey.

There's just so much to tell him- I've completed ONE whole book of letters for him and I'm already into my SECOND book... haiz.. that that's only at day#24 without him..I guess I'll have a whole library of them by the end of his 2 years in NS. (eh. he reads them at weekends.. so i guess its like EuNewsWeek compiled into books.) I din know I could write so much.. maybe i'm just long-winded? o_O NAH!

I love Class 95 coz there's so much classic in it and I LOVE jazzy sexy classic. Its better than druming ur ears to death with over-punkish-hard-rock-metal music which sounds no better than a child clashing pans and woks together with the cracking thunder and the screeching of car tires. Yeah. u got it.

2005-05-07T21:51:00.000+08:00

Today's buzy busy BUZY. Damn. I know they're using me to their full advantage before I can leave the company. The 1st Sat of the month is always the WORSE. Damn. Its so freaking sickening and tiring coz u get ALL sorts of parents coming to pay for their kids' tuition fees. ALL SORTS.

I mean, aunties with fat and flabby arms, saggy skin, oily face and REBONDED blond hair. They wear their whole BOTTLE of foundation and squeeze themselves into tight skin hugging skimpy spags and halters, complete with a totally mismatched short shorts thats so tight u're afraid their blood circulation stops just there and that they may just collapse onto the counter u're at- crushing u with their weight.

What could be worse than when all The Aunties Of the World Unite, walking up and down the counter like its an aisle for their fashion parade and demanding that we serve them like they are Taras? Some are born, unfortunately, with a face which says "Hit Me Baby! (one more time)" or maybe its their pencil-thin eyebrows which looks like plastic strips of black tape pasted unto their faces. Or their marker-drawn eyeliners and deeply crayoned blue eyeshadow. I'm sorry if you're eating now, I dont mean to make you puke.

I shall spare you from further groteques details.

Anyway, some are disgustingly demanding. Its like they expect you to clean the shit off their ass or pluck out their aimlessly-grown nose hair for them. I espcially hate it when I hand them the nets machine for them to punch their PIN and they take it that I am HOLDING IT OUT FOR THEM TO PUNCH THEIR FREAKING PIN when its freaking obvious that i'm holding it at its edge so that they can HOLD IT THEMSELVES and key; and they when they do irritate me by punching while I am holding it, it falls off my hand and they expect me to PICK IT UP AND HOLD IT UP FOR THEM. Hello Mam? Isnt it obvious that YOU have to do it yourself? I'm not paid to be your nets machine holder. What is worse is when they REPEATED the same gesture for their following subjects (u have to pay different subjects differently) Man, I was so pissed. If there's anything to be punched, its gotta be their face.

The worse has yet to come.

There are those who are so condesending to you just coz, to them, u're just a mere counter-girl, someone who possibly dropped out and have to do this shitty job of serving their fat flabbly foul-smelling asses. It doesnt help when their kids- who have not even gotten their PSLE certs- think the same way and treat u like shit. I mean, if they wanna do it tt way- Please get your A level certs before talking to me, if not, keep ur freaking mouth shut. I will prob complete my degree before u even get ur PSLE cert.

But can i trash it out on these think-their-so-smart-but-are-just-shit kids? No, coz I'm in a line where u've to smile no matter what happens- just like a senile in a mental hospital. A complete idiot. Pardon me, but its totally stupid to act silly when you're not one. Its like telling ppl, "Come! Drown me in your spit!" When inside, you feel like hurling them by their hair and spinning them around till they fly OUT of sight (like the way the headmistress does in Matilda). Plus, it seems fun to stuff the NETS machine into their mouths and make them swap their NETS card up their own asses.

Please man, be nice and I'll be sweet as an angel, if not, I'll be so mean u'll be sorry you even spoke to me.

I'm simply not fit to do Customer Service.

2005-05-03T08:27:00.000+08:00

Goldfish daunt me.Their whole existence seems kind of reproach. 'What is it all about?' they seem to be say. 'I swim here, I swim there. What for?' I cant stand looking at a goldfish swimming for more than 10 seconds without feeling like boxing its forehead (maybe tt's how luo han yu came about).

To my mind, the only possible pet is a cow. Cows love you. They are harmless, they look nice, they dun need a box to crap in, they keep the grass down and are so trusting and stupid that you cannot help but lose your heart to them. You can stand by the wall at any hour of the day or night and after minute the cows will all waddle over and stand with you, much too stupid to know what to do next, but happy just to be with you. They will listen to your problems and never ask a thing in return. And when you're tired of them, u can have juicy medium-rare Steak- black-pepper topping complete with soft mashed potatoes and carrots. Perfect.

2005-05-01T11:27:00.000+08:00

I'm SooOOooOo Glad to get into MASS Com!!!! The best part is that I'm NOT alone!!! MAry ann got in too!! Hope we can be in the same klass, same course, same dorm- same everything!! And Quanju got in to NTU Accountancy- with much blessing! Halelluia!!

Yeah.. that's adds on to Reasons-why-i-should-go-NTU coz for all I know, Before the surprising and almost-too-impossible letter for Mass Com Interview came, I had never dared to dream that I could possibly be accepted into such a course. Of cos I did once- back when i was in Primary school, when me and MAry ann drew magazines, write articles and pretended we're editors and agony aunts, (when we were still so very young and naive) - but i was immediately brought back to reality- Spelling "New York" as "New Yoke", and scoring only a pathetic 1110 for moi SAT?! (& i was so demoralised i din bother to retake it again) Nah.. Dream on. But Hey! Thanks to God, the dream did materialize.. in such a way that took me by surprise.

and so the long and boring story goes...

For it only took an extremely bored O' me to play with the order of moi choices (of studies) when dealing w admission into NTU- God knows why i did it! Anyway,it was to be moi back-up plan for NUS arts. And Mass Com was put down for fun.. (in all Grace and Modesty!) in no consideration nor hopes that i will be picked. So that split second kinda change everything... because I am PICKED.

Its kinda hard to explain to you, dear readers. All I can say is that I still feel like I'm dreaming- every day i wake up thinking "wad a wonderful dream!" and had to check and read my letter again only to think that I am still dreaming and had just only woken up from my sub-dream (if u know wad i mean).

Sheessh! That paragraph's so full of internal rhyme & Assonance!

Irony.

2005-04-26T20:35:00.000+08:00

As i face the confinement of moi pale white walls of my office, i take comfort that I can finally end this agony on the 14th of May. And I can FINALLY go out with moi best-friend-ever, best-friend-till-now, brides'-maid-to-be MARY ANN KLYNE. geez.. she's one friend who u can just be crazy and to do stupid things with. Since i'm so absolutely bored with work, i decided to check out other ppl's blog and was so happy to see MA's Sparssybaba!!! haha.. in case you dont know wad it is, its a little soft toy lamb which we think look sparstic, so yeah.. you got it. She bought one for me from New Zealand too and i gotta wash it twice when it became The Black Sheep.

Ok, aside from the now mundune boring routine details of my life which inevitably arises from you-know-what. I'm sure glad that it will end on the 14th May. Although its soo irritating that I still have to work on the 14th!! Its a SAT for goodness' sake! It the kind of feeling you get when u've planned your great big outdoor garden wedding, with specific tulips and roses, red carpet along the alsie as well as the sweet pink and white balloons of which one contain your ring -only to rain cats and dogs in a raging storm just when you want to mouth "I do". Nowhere is this sensation greater than taking away my saturday away from QJ..!! Especially so when I wont be able to see him the previous saturday cos he's in that disguesting field camp having mandatory undisturbed mub bath! Away from civilisation and with no means of even connecting with it. Making my confinment even more ordeal..

miss HIM....

2005-04-26T20:34:00.001+08:00

sauage lips for sale?

2005-04-26T20:34:00.000+08:00

smiley

2005-04-26T20:33:00.000+08:00

me and him

2005-04-26T20:31:00.000+08:00

me and botak ju!

2005-04-25T08:29:00.000+08:00

I've not been updating this regularly- oh well, i NEVER do..

In a way, the last entry very much expresses how i feel now still.. the dread and dismay, the dark gloom that befalls on me each sunday night..

O how the Sun rises only on the weekends?
And with how sad steps it climbst down the skies?
As the deep darkness desends upon my world
with creatures of the night creeping
in dreams which yet unfold into a
world of pure emptiness- how it
leaves you cold! How it rips your soul!
Stars, Moon, Sun, Rain walk in my fashion.

Today's another boring day at work. Dont take me wrong- I love my collegues, (just a little distaste for the Chao-England Opeh) and i really appreaciate Jac (moi immediate superior) for making so many compromises for me- leave and all, putting me in marketing, the MOST interesting job any EOA like me can have; a job which enables me space for creatativity, desgining stuff and having flexible working hours- working morning shifts so that i can have the evening free. Even working with the radio on (yes, its a luxuary here) But oh moi i'm one not to be contained- it seems that i was given ALOT of freedom (relatively to other EOAs) but i have more to achieve, more to do to fulfill my soul, and i need MORE space than what i've been given. Am i asking too much? No? Fully understanding that i cant expect so much in the workforce, but hey- I can always earn the money in a Proper job in time to come, but I'm only 19 once. And there's so much implicit cost which outweighs the total gain that i just could not bear to sacrifice. No matter how attractive earning is to me- it doesnt beat spending quarlity time with my love ones or rather, with myself.
Am I living an Irony? Yes by all good things, I absolutely am! How i work in an industry which i myself had detest- an industry whose policy is to rob all children of their childhood, to steal their youth (like what they are almost doing to me) and crush their creativity! How I suffer in silence for my hypocrisy! Could I endure another 1 month? All I've been doing is to complain! I have been stung by my conscience to be responisble- at least finish the job till the end of May.

And i pray that i will feel better after writing this entry in the very comfort of my office.Where no cameras can zoom in to see what i wrote (not as if i care if they do).

As i wait in agony for any accepted admission to either Mass Com or Arts- the former proves much harder than the latter, esp after my screwed-up MCQ test and essay of which exposes my ignorance to who the PM of Thailand is and Where our PM's wife works in, not to mention my very brief conversation with the Prof during the interview where i failed to show my self- I am pounded by the gloom of which the sun refuses to rise- it does sometimes, but barely when you can see the light, it goes back down again.. I get so worried about Quanju, esp when he's sick and still have to command his platoon. I wish i can enjoy my whole holiday doing what I've mentioned in moi last entry..(yes, its kinda long to be repeated again) As much as i know its his responsiblity to serve the counrty- but argh! Isnt he doing enough already?? All those National Team training...and wad about me? I am to serve Singapore by producing enough kids to stop the Grey-by boom! And I'll need him! Even if its to be done only 7 years later.

I wish i can take up some courses instead of been confined to this cubicle. OKOK, i guess i've written enough to vent some of my fustrations.. I wish i could just stay at home and learn all the pieces that QJ taught me instead of.. argh! you-know-what. damn.. Eunice! Stop it!

I miss moi darling Yang Quanju... *sob*

moi cOcoNut TreE is in bMt... :(

2005-04-08T23:13:00.000+08:00

Today is the day i somehow dread yet yearn.. Such a dreadful yearning comes only due to the fact that it is the very day moi cOconUt Tree is sent to Tekong Resort and Spa. I'm glad he's finally getting some mandatory holiday which i cant wait for him to start and end. Yet it is also for the very simple reason that i dread it -He loves vacations, but not one without me..

Thus while he gets his complusory mud bath and green-and-black facial, under a cheerful sun, on the warm fine sand beside the great blue sea; I slogged under the terribly torturous tution center customer service cubicle where I get spit, stares, piecing eyes and verbal diarrhea - and i still have to smile at them sweetly while standing still to encourage the above. Its is no better than saying "Hey! I love that spit! Go on! Do it again!" with a big bright sunny smile.

Anyway..

I miss moi coConUt TreE.. As I travel home from work today- it occurs to me how much i miss feeling my hand in his and swinging our arms as we walk back to my house.
I miss his jokes and his singing and miss him saying "Hey! Wanna buy somthing anot?" each time we pass by 7-11 - sometimes I'd say yes and we'd buy $5 worth of things just to get the free magnet.. He'll always look out for my favorite meji ice-cream while i try to stop him from consuming too much junk food..
I miss swimming with him and counting to 20 before i compete w him to that there's compeition.
I miss playing the wave pool with him and always pretending we're snorkling or just mere stationary at the "strategic" spot to let the waves crash into us.
I miss playing basketball with him - I NEVER feel discouraged when playing w him. He never looks down on me despite the wide difference bet our standards..
I miss him playing the piano for me and teaching me new pieces and repeating the notes again and again cos i wasnt paying attention.
I miss his strict yet gentle words when i always feel like giving up after a little setback..
I miss gg to the gym with him and trying to do wad he does even if unsuccessfully- he will then adjust to something more realistic for me.. I miss eating with him and dumping my left-overs for him to finish..
I miss picking all the delicious parts of his dish while i kept mine to myself- only to save it for him later..
I miss him trying to pretend he doesn like to eat someting we both really like just so that i can have it.
I miss trying to jump on him to make him piggy-back me..he usually carry me anyway..
I miss not carrying my stuff cos he does it for me all the time.. I miss eating peeled prawns by him..
i miss walking Pache with him and competing to see who can kick Pache's toy into the 'goal' bet two trees below his blk.
I miss watching shows with him and commenting to him all that happened..
i miss 'bitching' about all the horrible things that happen in one day with him.. (as I listen to Micheal Buble's latest CD now), I miss the time we went to Malacca where i bought this CD and played it in the car and when we ate the famous Chicken Rice Balls and Tau huay and 'pick pick' at night...where we watched Star Wars halfway till we're too sleepy.
I miss watching South Park with him- it wont be the same w/o him... not even half as funny...
i miss all the lunches he cooked and delivered to me in his bicycle everyday i slog in that disgusting cubicle..
i miss trying to ride his bicycle with him with a near-deflated tire.
i miss riding the bikes with him and feeling the wind against our faces..screaming while going down hill- embarassassing him when motorists turn to look..
i miss trying to fish for a tiny tampan in 5 hours with him at the jetty -and getting sunburn while doin so..or trying to fish for intelligent prawns the size of a palm at Farmart or crabs using leftover baits..
i miss experimenting dishes with him.
I miss trying to sew moi favorite sheepo for me despite his guys' bulky more-clumsy fingers.
I miss his "yes! i got one! its huge- you better squeeze it out before it turns into a pigment" and went ahead to squeeze my blackhead for me..
i miss singing to him..

i miss my coConUt Tree

I miss him...

*sob*

2005-02-22T22:17:00.000+08:00

[Marrysong]

He never learned her, quite. Year after year
That territory, without seasons, shifted
under his eye. An hour he could be lost
in the walled anger of her quarried hurt
on turning, see cool water laughing where
the day before there were stones in her voice.
He charted. She made wilderness again.
Roads disappeared. The map was never true.
Wind brough him rain sometimes, tasting of sea -
and suddenly she would change the shape of shores
faultlessly calm. All, all was each day new:
the shadows of her love shortened or grew
like trees seen from an unexpected hill,
new country at each jaunty helpless journey.
So he accepted that geography, constantly strange.
Wondered. Stayed home increasingly to find
his way among the landscapes of her mind.

me.quanju.

2005-02-22T09:22:00.000+08:00

[MOVIE BITES]

FOND DE L'LET'ANG
I love Les Choristes! Somebody pls get me the soundtrack! A great touching international award winning flim anyone SHLD watch. I love the music and the story. I just cant wait to find the soundtrack and the posters (which i dun think is avaliable in S'pore...) Stupid, funny how Spore always have very ugly posters like.. BoA? or 5566? or Energy? Or even the disguesting SHE,males like F4? (all puns intended) or stupid movies like Aviator or The Terminater or SWAP... i wonder where do ppl get those appalling taste from? Okok, i shall stop insulting the wonderful likings of others. And ppl, PLS WATCH LES CHORISTES.

Black Hawk Down is a nice movie too, sad and well, not as bloody as i thought. Old war movies like Black Hwak Down or Hotel Rwanda are exhilarating and moving - well, also because they're slightly documental, at least u know it happened. Ignore others like stupid SWAP or Tears of the Sun- they are just showing a war which is non-exsistent.

Alrighty, so i had this movie maraton on sunday, after visiting Mr Tan's; meeting up with all moi seniors and juniors- hope u realise that none except Ah ma came from MY batch, i've been wonderfully pang seh-ed by all my delightful teammates. Guess they all wanted to do Business in NTU? ha. Kinda brings back a part of memory which i am definately not keen to remember. some place some time in Dec 7 to 9.
Anyway, it was great to talk to the others too, (Thank God i'm close to them) like, u get to know what happens in Uni, wad happens when u gratuate - yes, its 6-7 years of batches there. All except my 1986 batch.

But is ok, I still have my Les Choristes.

2005-02-20T00:41:00.000+08:00

[a piece of Frustration. on my part.]

I'm so very argh...!!! i feel soooo tied up, so constrained, so restricted...!!!! Like a little piece rag u tie, 9-folded and squeezed into a all-too-small plastic bag and it looks wholely like a vaccum piece of pillow. In fact. I AM in a vaccum!

If only i can turn back time....ARGHZ....... and while EVERYONE's going back to my fun and carefree SAJC, waiting in lines perhaps for funfair games of pin-ball throwing, winning prizes and soft toys and little sweet things made from the creative juices of the students, eating popcorns and nice soft cotton candy which will fleet like the little clouds in the wonderful clear blue sky above. ALL will devour the absolute pleasure of seeing each other and catching up with lost time, reliving the old memories being back in our old and tattered, about-to-be-demolished cosy warm school WHILE i sit in my Synthetic Cell with only a lousy lonesome glaring computer as company which really isnt company at all-it makes my eyes tear. I've to rush to meet datelines set by all my superiors with very little cooperation. Guess what? I've now only a day to complete a whole new BIG set of task given to me yesterday.

DAmn it!! I miss SAJC I miss moi teachers tho some are horrible, but i'd prefer them than work!
I miss moi classmates!!! Chu-Kwek-Di-Ni-Pok-Ha!
I MISS MY BASKETBALL TEAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I miss the indoor basketball court with the left side of the rim tilted to the side..
I miss training!!! Miss running Labador Park, running Telok Blangah Hill, miss running up 100 stories and back to school (with moi team of coz! Its always fun to run w more ppl)
I Miss all my adventures in school...all moi escapes, runaways, pon-ings and total defiance...
I miss my JC life....

Saints BBALL! Miss them like Crazy..

Kinda worried about my results suddenly.. I seriously have no idea what to do if I cant get into Uni..as in, Uni of my choice. Dont know if NIE would accept someone w that kind of results?

Dont wanna think about it..

I played basketball today, rushed to play after work. Its so irritating to have to put on make up and den I'll have to scrub every inch of my face like 5 times before i'm sure that its clean.. Like I dont wanna have a pimple plantation or smth! anyway, the cleaning takes Forever, and i only got to play for 2 hours before the court lights off. And I dont even think that its going to give me muscle aches - somthing i always look forward to, it shows i've truely worked out - the similar feeling of satisfation after each training. At least it comforts me that i'm exchanging some useless fats for some fine muscles- though i've lost quite a bit of muscle mass.. I want to tone it up again! haiz.. again, i miss training.

sometimes, I dont wanna grow up.

the end.

2005-02-16T22:23:00.000+08:00

OK.. i've written yet another loooong entry for SANDRA. but being the computer-idiot i am, it crashed and now its gone. Thank You very much.

I dun have much mood to write another one.

Valentine's Day Part II

To cut it short:
Quanju and I think that everyday is Valentine's Day. Its pointless to have a day where u can be sweet to your loved one. If you're sweet, u're sweet. Fullstop. And its so uncomfortable to dress up like its ur wedding, in satin scarf and stuff, with white lace and cream top, holding a bunch of pretty little roses sold at a price aimed to burn a hole in your bf's pocket- only so that you can get the thrill of everyone looking at you holding a bunch of about-to-die-the-next-day flowers. If that's not enough, its kinda fun to squeeze with every other couple doing the same precise and planned strokes of action- like that in a Bollywood Hindi movie.
So, with red hearts and chocolates and heart-shaped balloons, its 'love in the air' However, it absolutely does not mean that love isnt in the air w/o all these things.

Quanju doesnt believe in giving real flowers, coz they die, no false ones either, coz it just represent false love. So better to save and splurge on smth better- like the Perfect Wedding, oh did i mention that in moi last entry? yeah.. So we just bought some ingredients and cooked Mushroom Cream Spaggetti for moi family.

Did i tell you that Cream and Spicy Soup is a recipe for disaster? Imagine Marigo Hi-Low Milk with thousands of Chilli paddis - with the seeds. Ultimate Ice-Blended Spicyshake. This experiment took place in my stomach and its residue made its way out the very next morning.

So this is moi Valentine's DAy, nice, warm and cozy.

me and qj in Macau

2005-02-16T00:23:00.000+08:00

Valentine's Day.. OK, Sandy, this's for you:

I'm writing this piece of my autobiography cos moi dear friend Sandra Lim XiaoBian wants to record it down and probably use it for some History Source-Based Question for God-knows-what. Yes, she has queued up 24-7 for a week, dying to hear a single precious word of mine, and to devour each letter to her greatest delight crying out "more! more!"... She begs at my feet as i toss out letter by letter.

yeah.. so this piece of bloggie is for her

So.. Let's talk abt Valentine's Day?

"Love is in the air..."

As excpected, i spent it with moi dearest Quanju. He bought me a 4GB MP3 player - that silly boy! i mean.. *haiz*.. gotta save up or he wont be able to marry me early! But i do appreciate it very much, i've been saving for it for like ages.. maybe since J1.. oh well. (i never can save $$ looking at the rate i spent and the stuff i spend on..) So, i say "i'll save up for..." but it never did happen- and when it did happen, that's because things like these happen. Am i confusing you? Nah...

Ok, where was i? Ya, so we went to eat Ma La Steamboat or Spicy Steamboat so to say.. it was this huge pot of soup, half chicken soup base, the other half, it looks almost like the blazing Witches' Spell Pot in Macbeth. Its blood red, drown with lots of little red chilli paddis and its ovalish little babies which glared devishly at you. We could possibly named it The Dead Sea of the East... nothing sinks in there- or rather, no amt of chilli can be sunk coz it was TOO full of it..

It was run by PRCs.. agrh!! I mean, HOW could i even give them business?!! If i've known.. *sigh* 'If only' repeats itself a thousand times and deepens only the grieve. I knew it! so, they're taking their long-awaited revenge on me! Argh.. so i have been foolish enough to fall prey to them, how i was at my weakest link - my stomach was growling non-stop screaming (on top of my lungs) "i'm going to gobble your whole person if you're not gg to feed me this very minute" and.. I fell for it..

It left a burning sensation for the whole day..
"Let it go now than hold on and hurt you I gotta let it burn" - Burn by Usher

and..-drumsroll- I Bought Micheal Buble CD - finally!!!!! San, if u wanna borrow from me, can ask me!

So, this is Part I of Valentine's Day.

2005-02-10T23:01:00.000+08:00

gong xi FAR cai.. Why oh why is moi 'Cai' so Far???

T'is the Season to be jolly (rich) where people visit each others' places with two normally-recycled-from-the-last-visit mandrin oranges in their normally-recycled-from-the-last-visit little red bags, carried with them ang baos in their normally-recycled-from-last-received ang bao packets (to save $$) and eat and be merry. All was good, Chinese traditions: wear red and only red; reprimanding is not encouraged and gambling is ideal for winning u more money (ever thought why some ppl lose so that others win??)

If i'm to be ever so free in any time of the year- it'd be during this special festive season which so represents and reminds me of moi Chinese roots. Yes, What do i do? Open my house for visiting but never visiting. which means i've to do cleaning up after cleaning each time someone visits. If cleaning up moi room- tucking in all moi national flags, girls' stuff and well.. stuff into moi almost-busting cupboard which is also home to moi other toys-turned-momentos-turned-rubbish which i still cant bear to part with; (Its just as good as telling a garung guni man to clear whatever 'trash' he has collected after a hard day's of work.), i still have to help clean out every inch of dirt dutifully left by each member of the household in the toliet bowl. Scrubbing every tile and combing the sides of the towl bowl isnt as exciting as combing the tasty sides of a bowl of deliciously baked Sheperd's pie. (diff: the latter's an ingredient of the junk found in the former) Ok, i shan't gross u guys out during this wonderful festive season where you clean the house for a few days only so that it'll be horrendously soiled again in a few hours on this special day.

While ppl are happily soiling the ground i polished, i am left in the dismal boredom of my own, awaiting of Self-Entertainment. I'm quite capable of entertaining myself now since i've got years of experience- not only from this annual festival of coz, but oh, also from times when i'm stuck with boring ppl or when ppl are so diplomatic you'd rather talk to urself than hear them polish and make their different masks shine.

But its ok, cos my 8-hour ordeal ended when moi cousin,friends and of coz moi darling came. They made CNY alot more fun! Tho moi cousin can only stay till 7,moi buddies were game enough to stay till 10- when all have left, and den to clear the debris together.It was fun to have company and at least have ppl to entertain each other rather than me, myself and I. Mulan was GREAT!! i love Reflection by coco lee.

and so.. this was moi chinese new year..

Tmr's work, and die.. i just got a Hanna Tatoo on moi hand.. wonder wad's moi boss's response? It doesnt help that he's an old-though-still-think-he's-young man and i, a young rebel.

Hong Kong!

2005-02-09T21:30:00.000+08:00

Right, This is Me and QJ in HK, its like 6 degrees cold! and i look fat in this outfit! I love HK's FOOD!!!!!!!!! I LOVE the SMELLY TOFU!!!! i dun care if its from the street store, i love it!!!!!!!! -droolz- paradoxical fragrant smell whiffing into moi nostrails... ah.. i can just forget that i was frozen! (yes i was a frozen pea)
HK is damn cold.. it made moi nose bleed and moi skin peel. And HK ppl are rude rude rude (pls refer to moi entry on PRCs in Nov's archieve)

I feel like eating chou tofu right now!!

So happy that Aaron and Hyden are getting married!!! Aaron is sooo sweet to Hyden!! :)

My darling is also so sweeet too...I wanna go overseas with him again!! If only we can go on Amazing Race too! But looking at me.. i'll prob think Honolulu is in Africa...?

Anyway, HK is really fun! We had wanted to go Tsmania actually.. but its too expensive.. And we had like roasted duck, chicken, pigeons,pork,wantan, shui jiao for like almost 8 days.. and got really sick of it.. till now.. (HK ppl never got sick of them??!) maybe i'll eat it in June or smth. We shopped like 20hours a day? body & mind exhuasting. And played dai dee at night in our hotel room. Got alot of cheap deals too. Only that came with smoked hair & clothes. Somehow stupid Honkies love to smoke.. seems like its very much in their culture? Its especially gross to see a beautiful young lady smiling and talking to u until she lights up and all wonderful or even near-decent impressions of her just disappear into the thin air - not that i've gd impressions of them in the 1st place (den again, pls refer back to moi PRC entry in Nov)

I want to eat chou tofu...

techo-idiot no?

2005-02-08T20:37:00.000+08:00

Let me update u guys on MOI! heh.. since i figured that it'll be hard to meet up...(esp for chu-kwek-di-pok-ha and moi BP friends)

I'm currently working in a tuition center where i initially print worksheets and attend to customers at the counter - counter staff that is.. I've been transfered to the marketing dept coz moi friend-collegue showed moi i/c moi wonderful pretty drawing of moi farting elephant - if you guys even rem its an elephant,( yes, hai ha, i drew it on ur bd bottle and u said it was a piggg... -__-") Anyway, I dun have to be the 'photocopying auntie' anymore but have to design all the company's notice boards- including all 26 branches of it.. how cute, how nice and refreshing to see a board filled with farting elephants instead of just mere 'students' results.. plain old company's logo and motto or what have you...

My goodness! now i worked in an office where i no longer attend to fussy irritating think-they-are-so-high-and-mighty and think-their-kids-are-so-smart parents.. but have a table and com all to myself where i surf for pictures and designs and grow fat.

i just cant' stand those stupid parents who insist that their kids are soo smart that they want them to enter the GEP in the tuition center (yes, if u're wondering, our tuition center do offer GEP and i think its disgusting man... robbing kids of what little childhood they already have.) and here's one of the senerio i have:

mother with son: ex-CU-me huh, how is the tuition carried out? is the syllabus the same as the schools?
me: Yes mam, we follow the schools' syllabus according only we teach them faster so that they'll be more comfortable with the pace in school
mother: Oh really ah? But HOR, RI sets its own syllabus LEH, how AH?
me : (den what the hell are u doing here? Go find an RI tutor lah! siao zha bo!) Oh I see, would you like to see a sample of it?
mother: Sure
Me took the sample for her to see
Me: These are the ones, how is it? (forcing a smile- half appearing to be sarcastic)
mother: ( to her fat ugly bespectacled son) so how son? can? is this what u learn in school?
Son: Ok La.. (to me) BUT hor, RI sets its own Syllabus one, so hor, u know la, RI sets its own syllabus so may not be the same
Me: (getting pissed- UH-uh.. THAT is WHY I let u see the sample what, are u Retarded or what? Oh yes, RI i forgot) Well, LOOK at the sample and do u think its similar to what u have been taught? (half-mocking at him already)
Mother: RI sets its own syllabus a bit harding than normal ones leh..
Son: Ya, RI sets its own syllabus, it even writes its own textbooks, so its different
Me: (YES, enough! I KNOW RI sets its own bloody syllabus! Did RI teach you to be a parrot or smth?!) Well, Since you are so good already, Why do you still need tuition? ( i mean, you are just stupid beyond hope, and oh, if you want, maybe i can recommend u to the IMH- the best tuition center for ppl like ur son) (Force a big bright smile and makin sure the boss isnt ard)
Mother: ...... (looks at the sample)
Son: .... (looks at the mother)
Mother: Oh, hmm.. its quite similar, i think i'll consider first, Thank You very much
Me: U're welcomed (to go back to ur Retarded Instituition)

See! That's the USUAL kind of parents who send their kids for tuition, and when i worked at the counter, i've to deal with soo many of such idiotic parents... haiz.. oh well okok, enuff of them, talk abt moi work now, doing ALOt of Art& crafts. and it hasnt been all that good either,

Response of
Laminating machine: Moi teachers' photos, profiles.. melted in it... dunno why..anyway, its not so bad now coz i tore out the melted-solidified sheets and now its usable again... only that i broke my ruler while doing it...
Shredder: Paper jammed even before it got shredded, none of moi collegue can use it after that, from now on, i shred them myself...
Colour printer: Paper jammed or unaligned...it finally froze altogether and not respond coz i have put too many printing jobs at one time...
Printer: Paper jammed and i dunno why...(each time at diff place, it always makes me sweat while trying to pull out the jammed paper and ended up tearing it away leaving the bits still stuck in place...)
Computer: Nothing is aligned the way i want them to
Printers-in-general: I often click the wrong printer so moi doc acutally did get printed- in other ppls' printer all over the HQ...

There's seriously absolutely wrong... clash of personality??!!

So that's me in moi work....

Thank You

2005-01-26T21:48:00.000+08:00

yo.. Today was great-but-not-that-great...
I went out with Mary Ann today!!!!!!!!!!! (Finally!) Man.. I've so much to tell her, but somehow, i dun quite know where to start with and its kinda hard to talk when you are shopping for Shoes (yeah..."Black Leather Working Shoes" quoted from moi manager) and a nice big photo frame i can squeeze all moi photos in.. (realise the word 'squeeze') I was also quite tired from shoppin and brainstorming for designs and art materials in ArtFriend.. i just cant wait for Mary Ann to come moi hse den we can talk eat talk eat talk eat and.. yeah.. all day long!!! Hey, We must meet at moi hse the next wednesday k!! Got alot to catch up!
I also met Chailing today!!!! ah.. nice to see two of best friends today.. But only coz moi darling is at work.. leaving me with moi girlfriends - Thank God Mary Ann is only working 2 days a week!!! At least i still have her!
Moi boss is kinda particular - abt us putting make-up and stuff.. and yuck! I just hate putting sticky stuff on moi face. those sticky gooey powery banicles just love to get stuck into the deep-set pores of mine and create a whole new layer of black-head plantation and then attract uninvited visitors to come see. Loreal- Becuase You're Worth getting disfigured?

Moi darling is working today.. MISS HIM LEH... o_O

Same Old Brand New Day...?

2005-01-11T23:19:00.000+08:00

today was work as usual.. din get to teach any kids -thank God. I cant stand teaching PRCs english!! anyway, it was PEACEFUL today!! :) cuz.. one of moi irritating collegue from HCJC was off!!!! she's such a @#$%!!!! nvm.. -censored- anyway, yiwei (a friend in moi workplace) was quite disappointed that i will be transfered out of the counter and put to work under Marketing and Customer Service.. which means.. design notice boards and sales kits to sell my company - Just Education Tuition Center.. -___-" as well as ans all those fussy parents phonecalls... acutally, i'll miss working w Yiwei too.. its kinda ambivalent.. like its great now that i dun have to see that stupid HC gal.. but i wont be working w anybody else cept for moi IC.. drawing alone at moi table.. oh well.. i hope i'll get posted back to being a counter staff after designing those boards.. Its nice to teach kids actually.. They're SOOOO CUTE! and have ur collegues to talk to while working..
Just praying hard to be posted back...

QJ is teaching moi sis now..
He is still teaching...
teaching..
it's already 11.30, he has been teaching since 10!!!

haiz.. moi darling..

Yesterday PART II

2005-01-08T20:11:00.000+08:00

Ok, enough of moi sarcasim. I shall be frank now, so frank you'll prob think i'm too opinionated. Well, too bad. Cuz i am.
I so hate MCPs, and that (moi previous entry) just made me realise what a gem i have picked. If HuiJie could say such words, i really wonder how scarce is guys like moi darling... To think that ppl actually think that its a wonder that he remains as a suitable bachalor. -ahem- (i shall leave the 'he' here, for ur thinking pleasure) anyway, if i was there, i prob have to put in much effort to stop myself from tearing him apart, snaring at his pale face....and..- i shall not describe the unmentionables here- anyway, what was nice abt this day was meeting Chailing (and of coz clearing the quarral w qj- in our own way of coz, i mean do i still need to say this?)

Chailing bought me a nike Basketball Battleground shirt, abit baggy cuz its M size, but there wasnt any left there. Its really thoughtful of her, hey, i love it, thanks gal! To think that i've been good friends w this gal for 6 years since sec sch... where she used to shun guys and was quite shy of them, now, she's working with them! and even.. ahem.. (u-know-what-i-m-gg-to-say) okok.. pls refrain from thinking too creatively (where 'creative' is a euphemism). Anyway, it was great to meet up and talk to her, at least i can cut down on what i've to write to her.. tho i'll still write but writing never seems enough - as in the same case for Mary ann...-haiz-
Anyway, moi dearest Mary Ann , Chailing, Shijia, chu-kwek-di-pok-ha... and Emily (Lim)..i'm afraid i'll be free only after april when Qj goes for his NS... I've to dedicate this period of time to him k? =^_^=

Ok, i've updated my blog, so u guys can stop the reminders.. -____-"

I love MCPs

2005-01-08T19:43:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was such a rush hour gig for me...
Somebody printed my job wrongly.. and guess who has to attend to it? yeah.. me..
Didnt start off well too, quarralled w Quanju cuz i've this idiocyracy of wanting ppl to pick up my calls when urgent. It didnt last long of cuz, as always when QJ pacified me.

THEN. I learnt that HuiJie asked him NOT to give in to me each time (which was what always happens) He said it was to "prevent me from stepping over" moi darling. What an absolutely fantastic, bombastic, highly sophisticated, intelligent, fabulous idea. Comming from the mouth of our MVP.

Perhaps, it'd work?

Yeah, sure.

For those of you who know me extremely well, you'd know what i mean.

If there's one thing i totally love in the world, it would be Male Chauvinism.
IF any guy did what Our dearest Capt suggested:

He knows me so well. ( He knows I loved to be ordered, screamed at, stepped on, reprimanded for no reasons and a slave)
I would LOVE him (Yes I will)
He knows how to handle me (like how a dog handles his bone, I'm sure.)
coz of Point 3, we'll last forever. ("Till the end of time...")

Point taken? You had better be.

I rest my case.

Updating moi Blog

2005-01-06T23:33:00.000+08:00

Hi, Today is a special day, it is MY special day
Its MY BIRTHDAY.

Happy Birthday to me...

Happy Birthday to me-ee...

Happy Birthday to me..

Guess wad? I'm suffering from food poisoning brought over by yesterday. Great, this is the 2nd time i got sick on my birthday. WHOA.. what a celebration, with yummy cakes and goodies specially cooked by moi mum, the juicy thick thai chicken tighs, the delicious pepper crabs, fried prawns, stir-fried egg plants and french beans... plus the chocolatey Black Forest Cake...

in moi dreams..

in reality, i had plain rice, steam eggs & salted veggies. And Strawberry Sponge Cake as moi bd cake..(Delicious nonetheless coz its prepared by moi mum.) after the horrible puking and diarrhea from ytd, i dun quite dare to eat the above challenging food... but it WAS agonizing to go to the bball buffet ytd at Merchant Court Hotel only to eat yet not taste the food, and pity pity.. to puke out all that i ate after that... -___-" To think that such a big eater like me cant eat these food!!!!!!!! >_<

But, it wasnt that bad...today.. (moi birthday) Quanju woke up 7am to accompany me to the doc's & i took MC from work. He managed to get me to eat pizza and rosti at Marche, of which i enjoyed (surprisingly) and didnt puke or had diarrhea. these of coz should not happen, esp not after i have taken moi medicine.

In case u're wondering how i got food poisoning, its from CATHAY PACIFIC Plane Food, plus some horrible western food from Hong Kong which through some chemical reaction, successful upset my supposedly strong stomach (aliteration eh?) Plane food was some stale, disgusting chicken meat which look more like a piece of curdded toufu soaked in soya sauce for like ages, with it yellowish greenish pale appeal, it wasnt exactly that appetisizing.. accompanied by some soggy short french beans, so soft and salty it looks like wet limp spring onions and tasted like a tube a curdded soya sauce (if there's smth like that) the tuna salad looks more like minced beef with lots of frozen tomatoes topped with some funny spicy dressing- an aquired taste, i must say. and so, being the pig i am, i tried all those not really taking note of what i put in moi mouth cuz i was watching "My Happy Bride" the movie...
So there u go...moi birthday present from Cathay Pacific!

Abt moi new blog.. i tot it looks very nice except for the music which sort of spoils the humour in my entries.. i'm still figuring out how to off it.. if any of u know, pls tell me ok? (if not, just turn off ur speakers while reading my blog) Abt the tag borad.. i know there's smth wrong the colour combi.. so.. hang on, while i try to remember my login & password to tag board ok?

There, SAndra, I've Updated moi blog. happy??!! -___-"' hehe

Hey Mr China, turn the record on...

2004-11-08T22:15:00.000+08:00

Today is 8th of Nov. moi dear friend, Teo Char Char's bd.. poor gal..
I'm exactly 18 days away from my freedom, meanwhile, i decided to be intellectual and read Sinagpore's The Straits Times. Here's what i learnt:

8th Nov 2004 "Mr China"
Do you guys even know China exist? no? Nah.. how can that be? i mean, who else will be going around thinking they are forever in the center of the earth - which is true in a sense since these mountain turtles never step out of their rice fields nor dare to denounce Maoism by doing so. Still working towards Communist Utopia? Probably so - most of them at least.
Here's how they still think so highly of themselves:
Our dear Comrades are damn proud of their Chinese Heritage. If u are working in China or are investing in her, or are even thinking of doing so, BEWARE. They'll quit as and when they like as long as they feel that you don't understand them. note: keyword here is "they" meaning to say, what they understand about you is not important as long as you understand them completely. They probably doesnt give a *toot* -censored- about you. That's the caution given to wanna-be businessmen who are thinking of investing in there. The current (as well as consistent) problem in doing business there is the persistent cultural clashes. Such that even high-flyers with degrees (from University of Beijing which ranked just above NUS - yeah, i know, you wonder why) job-hops every now and then because they feel that their foreign bosses do not understand them, common complain? "You don't understand China!" Fine then, work ur ass off ur rice fields and eat off bamboo shoots. No wonder the Pandas are endangered.
This is one big problem faced FDIs in China - high turn-over rate discourages FDIs as it is very costly to have to rebuild their client networks - esp when Chinese workers quit w/o warning. To win them over, as mentioned, u must understand them very well. They do not like it when you show distaste to their stupid stinky backward culture. i.e you must embrace Mao as your China Idol (where only one contestant is allowed and no negative comments shld be given even though he croaks.) and able to recite the contents of "the little red book". nah.. not to that extent, no red book is needed as long as you try to live like them - refrain from washing ur undies and take only power bath the most once a week, talk as loudly as you can in public and spit anywhere you like. There! U have it.. easy? yeah. And u think globalization will make them realise they are at no center of the earth, you're wrong. They still very much think that they are right. This is their Utopia. :)

Yep.. this is one interesting thing i learnt from the news. And i'm NOT fabricating it! A little evaluation on moi part..just a little.
Good insights eh? Straits Times is so right.