Tuesday, February 22, 2005
[Marrysong]
He never learned her, quite. Year after year
That territory, without seasons, shifted
under his eye. An hour he could be lost
in the walled anger of her quarried hurt
on turning, see cool water laughing where
the day before there were stones in her voice.
He charted. She made wilderness again.
Roads disappeared. The map was never true.
Wind brough him rain sometimes, tasting of sea -
and suddenly she would change the shape of shores
faultlessly calm. All, all was each day new:
the shadows of her love shortened or grew
like trees seen from an unexpected hill,
new country at each jaunty helpless journey.
So he accepted that geography, constantly strange.
Wondered. Stayed home increasingly to find
his way among the landscapes of her mind.
me.quanju.
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Loves...
[MOVIE BITES]
FOND DE L'LET'ANG
I love Les Choristes! Somebody pls get me the soundtrack! A great touching international award winning flim anyone SHLD watch. I love the music and the story. I just cant wait to find the soundtrack and the posters (which i dun think is avaliable in S'pore...) Stupid, funny how Spore always have very ugly posters like.. BoA? or 5566? or Energy? Or even the disguesting SHE,males like F4? (all puns intended) or stupid movies like Aviator or The Terminater or SWAP... i wonder where do ppl get those appalling taste from? Okok, i shall stop insulting the wonderful likings of others. And ppl, PLS WATCH LES CHORISTES.
Black Hawk Down is a nice movie too, sad and well, not as bloody as i thought. Old war movies like Black Hwak Down or Hotel Rwanda are exhilarating and moving - well, also because they're slightly documental, at least u know it happened. Ignore others like stupid SWAP or Tears of the Sun- they are just showing a war which is non-exsistent.
Alrighty, so i had this movie maraton on sunday, after visiting Mr Tan's; meeting up with all moi seniors and juniors- hope u realise that none except Ah ma came from MY batch, i've been wonderfully pang seh-ed by all my delightful teammates. Guess they all wanted to do Business in NTU? ha. Kinda brings back a part of memory which i am definately not keen to remember. some place some time in Dec 7 to 9.
Anyway, it was great to talk to the others too, (Thank God i'm close to them) like, u get to know what happens in Uni, wad happens when u gratuate - yes, its 6-7 years of batches there. All except my 1986 batch.
But is ok, I still have my Les Choristes.
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Loves...
Sunday, February 20, 2005
[a piece of Frustration. on my part.]
I'm so very argh...!!! i feel soooo tied up, so constrained, so restricted...!!!! Like a little piece rag u tie, 9-folded and squeezed into a all-too-small plastic bag and it looks wholely like a vaccum piece of pillow. In fact. I AM in a vaccum!
If only i can turn back time....ARGHZ....... and while EVERYONE's going back to my fun and carefree SAJC, waiting in lines perhaps for funfair games of pin-ball throwing, winning prizes and soft toys and little sweet things made from the creative juices of the students, eating popcorns and nice soft cotton candy which will fleet like the little clouds in the wonderful clear blue sky above. ALL will devour the absolute pleasure of seeing each other and catching up with lost time, reliving the old memories being back in our old and tattered, about-to-be-demolished cosy warm school WHILE i sit in my Synthetic Cell with only a lousy lonesome glaring computer as company which really isnt company at all-it makes my eyes tear. I've to rush to meet datelines set by all my superiors with very little cooperation. Guess what? I've now only a day to complete a whole new BIG set of task given to me yesterday.
DAmn it!! I miss SAJC I miss moi teachers tho some are horrible, but i'd prefer them than work!
I miss moi classmates!!! Chu-Kwek-Di-Ni-Pok-Ha!
I MISS MY BASKETBALL TEAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I miss the indoor basketball court with the left side of the rim tilted to the side..
I miss training!!! Miss running Labador Park, running Telok Blangah Hill, miss running up 100 stories and back to school (with moi team of coz! Its always fun to run w more ppl)
I Miss all my adventures in school...all moi escapes, runaways, pon-ings and total defiance...
I miss my JC life....
Saints BBALL! Miss them like Crazy..
Kinda worried about my results suddenly.. I seriously have no idea what to do if I cant get into Uni..as in, Uni of my choice. Dont know if NIE would accept someone w that kind of results?
Dont wanna think about it..
I played basketball today, rushed to play after work. Its so irritating to have to put on make up and den I'll have to scrub every inch of my face like 5 times before i'm sure that its clean.. Like I dont wanna have a pimple plantation or smth! anyway, the cleaning takes Forever, and i only got to play for 2 hours before the court lights off. And I dont even think that its going to give me muscle aches - somthing i always look forward to, it shows i've truely worked out - the similar feeling of satisfation after each training. At least it comforts me that i'm exchanging some useless fats for some fine muscles- though i've lost quite a bit of muscle mass.. I want to tone it up again! haiz.. again, i miss training.
sometimes, I dont wanna grow up.
the end.
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Loves...
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
OK.. i've written yet another loooong entry for SANDRA. but being the computer-idiot i am, it crashed and now its gone. Thank You very much.
I dun have much mood to write another one.
Valentine's Day Part II
To cut it short:
Quanju and I think that everyday is Valentine's Day. Its pointless to have a day where u can be sweet to your loved one. If you're sweet, u're sweet. Fullstop. And its so uncomfortable to dress up like its ur wedding, in satin scarf and stuff, with white lace and cream top, holding a bunch of pretty little roses sold at a price aimed to burn a hole in your bf's pocket- only so that you can get the thrill of everyone looking at you holding a bunch of about-to-die-the-next-day flowers. If that's not enough, its kinda fun to squeeze with every other couple doing the same precise and planned strokes of action- like that in a Bollywood Hindi movie.
So, with red hearts and chocolates and heart-shaped balloons, its 'love in the air' However, it absolutely does not mean that love isnt in the air w/o all these things.
Quanju doesnt believe in giving real flowers, coz they die, no false ones either, coz it just represent false love. So better to save and splurge on smth better- like the Perfect Wedding, oh did i mention that in moi last entry? yeah.. So we just bought some ingredients and cooked Mushroom Cream Spaggetti for moi family.
Did i tell you that Cream and Spicy Soup is a recipe for disaster? Imagine Marigo Hi-Low Milk with thousands of Chilli paddis - with the seeds. Ultimate Ice-Blended Spicyshake. This experiment took place in my stomach and its residue made its way out the very next morning.
So this is moi Valentine's DAy, nice, warm and cozy.
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me and qj in Macau 
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Loves...
Valentine's Day.. OK, Sandy, this's for you:
I'm writing this piece of my autobiography cos moi dear friend Sandra Lim XiaoBian wants to record it down and probably use it for some History Source-Based Question for God-knows-what. Yes, she has queued up 24-7 for a week, dying to hear a single precious word of mine, and to devour each letter to her greatest delight crying out "more! more!"... She begs at my feet as i toss out letter by letter.
yeah.. so this piece of bloggie is for her
So.. Let's talk abt Valentine's Day?
"Love is in the air..."
As excpected, i spent it with moi dearest Quanju. He bought me a 4GB MP3 player - that silly boy! i mean.. *haiz*.. gotta save up or he wont be able to marry me early! But i do appreciate it very much, i've been saving for it for like ages.. maybe since J1.. oh well. (i never can save $$ looking at the rate i spent and the stuff i spend on..) So, i say "i'll save up for..." but it never did happen- and when it did happen, that's because things like these happen. Am i confusing you? Nah...
Ok, where was i? Ya, so we went to eat Ma La Steamboat or Spicy Steamboat so to say.. it was this huge pot of soup, half chicken soup base, the other half, it looks almost like the blazing Witches' Spell Pot in Macbeth. Its blood red, drown with lots of little red chilli paddis and its ovalish little babies which glared devishly at you. We could possibly named it The Dead Sea of the East... nothing sinks in there- or rather, no amt of chilli can be sunk coz it was TOO full of it..
It was run by PRCs.. agrh!! I mean, HOW could i even give them business?!! If i've known.. *sigh* 'If only' repeats itself a thousand times and deepens only the grieve. I knew it! so, they're taking their long-awaited revenge on me! Argh.. so i have been foolish enough to fall prey to them, how i was at my weakest link - my stomach was growling non-stop screaming (on top of my lungs) "i'm going to gobble your whole person if you're not gg to feed me this very minute" and.. I fell for it..
It left a burning sensation for the whole day..
"Let it go now than hold on and hurt you I gotta let it burn" - Burn by Usher
and..-drumsroll- I Bought Micheal Buble CD - finally!!!!! San, if u wanna borrow from me, can ask me!
So, this is Part I of Valentine's Day.
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Loves...
Thursday, February 10, 2005
gong xi FAR cai.. Why oh why is moi 'Cai' so Far???
T'is the Season to be jolly (rich) where people visit each others' places with two normally-recycled-from-the-last-visit mandrin oranges in their normally-recycled-from-the-last-visit little red bags, carried with them ang baos in their normally-recycled-from-last-received ang bao packets (to save $$) and eat and be merry. All was good, Chinese traditions: wear red and only red; reprimanding is not encouraged and gambling is ideal for winning u more money (ever thought why some ppl lose so that others win??)
If i'm to be ever so free in any time of the year- it'd be during this special festive season which so represents and reminds me of moi Chinese roots. Yes, What do i do? Open my house for visiting but never visiting. which means i've to do cleaning up after cleaning each time someone visits. If cleaning up moi room- tucking in all moi national flags, girls' stuff and well.. stuff into moi almost-busting cupboard which is also home to moi other toys-turned-momentos-turned-rubbish which i still cant bear to part with; (Its just as good as telling a garung guni man to clear whatever 'trash' he has collected after a hard day's of work.), i still have to help clean out every inch of dirt dutifully left by each member of the household in the toliet bowl. Scrubbing every tile and combing the sides of the towl bowl isnt as exciting as combing the tasty sides of a bowl of deliciously baked Sheperd's pie. (diff: the latter's an ingredient of the junk found in the former) Ok, i shan't gross u guys out during this wonderful festive season where you clean the house for a few days only so that it'll be horrendously soiled again in a few hours on this special day.
While ppl are happily soiling the ground i polished, i am left in the dismal boredom of my own, awaiting of Self-Entertainment. I'm quite capable of entertaining myself now since i've got years of experience- not only from this annual festival of coz, but oh, also from times when i'm stuck with boring ppl or when ppl are so diplomatic you'd rather talk to urself than hear them polish and make their different masks shine.
But its ok, cos my 8-hour ordeal ended when moi cousin,friends and of coz moi darling came. They made CNY alot more fun! Tho moi cousin can only stay till 7,moi buddies were game enough to stay till 10- when all have left, and den to clear the debris together.It was fun to have company and at least have ppl to entertain each other rather than me, myself and I. Mulan was GREAT!! i love Reflection by coco lee.
and so.. this was moi chinese new year..
Tmr's work, and die.. i just got a Hanna Tatoo on moi hand.. wonder wad's moi boss's response? It doesnt help that he's an old-though-still-think-he's-young man and i, a young rebel.
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Loves...
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
Right, This is Me and QJ in HK, its like 6 degrees cold! and i look fat in this outfit! I love HK's FOOD!!!!!!!!! I LOVE the SMELLY TOFU!!!! i dun care if its from the street store, i love it!!!!!!!! -droolz- paradoxical fragrant smell whiffing into moi nostrails... ah.. i can just forget that i was frozen! (yes i was a frozen pea)
HK is damn cold.. it made moi nose bleed and moi skin peel. And HK ppl are rude rude rude (pls refer to moi entry on PRCs in Nov's archieve)
I feel like eating chou tofu right now!!
So happy that Aaron and Hyden are getting married!!! Aaron is sooo sweet to Hyden!! :)
My darling is also so sweeet too...I wanna go overseas with him again!! If only we can go on Amazing Race too! But looking at me.. i'll prob think Honolulu is in Africa...?
Anyway, HK is really fun! We had wanted to go Tsmania actually.. but its too expensive.. And we had like roasted duck, chicken, pigeons,pork,wantan, shui jiao for like almost 8 days.. and got really sick of it.. till now.. (HK ppl never got sick of them??!) maybe i'll eat it in June or smth. We shopped like 20hours a day? body & mind exhuasting. And played dai dee at night in our hotel room. Got alot of cheap deals too. Only that came with smoked hair & clothes. Somehow stupid Honkies love to smoke.. seems like its very much in their culture? Its especially gross to see a beautiful young lady smiling and talking to u until she lights up and all wonderful or even near-decent impressions of her just disappear into the thin air - not that i've gd impressions of them in the 1st place (den again, pls refer back to moi PRC entry in Nov)
I want to eat chou tofu...
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Loves...
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
Let me update u guys on MOI! heh.. since i figured that it'll be hard to meet up...(esp for chu-kwek-di-pok-ha and moi BP friends)
I'm currently working in a tuition center where i initially print worksheets and attend to customers at the counter - counter staff that is.. I've been transfered to the marketing dept coz moi friend-collegue showed moi i/c moi wonderful pretty drawing of moi farting elephant - if you guys even rem its an elephant,( yes, hai ha, i drew it on ur bd bottle and u said it was a piggg... -__-") Anyway, I dun have to be the 'photocopying auntie' anymore but have to design all the company's notice boards- including all 26 branches of it.. how cute, how nice and refreshing to see a board filled with farting elephants instead of just mere 'students' results.. plain old company's logo and motto or what have you...
My goodness! now i worked in an office where i no longer attend to fussy irritating think-they-are-so-high-and-mighty and think-their-kids-are-so-smart parents.. but have a table and com all to myself where i surf for pictures and designs and grow fat.
i just cant' stand those stupid parents who insist that their kids are soo smart that they want them to enter the GEP in the tuition center (yes, if u're wondering, our tuition center do offer GEP and i think its disgusting man... robbing kids of what little childhood they already have.) and here's one of the senerio i have:
mother with son: ex-CU-me huh, how is the tuition carried out? is the syllabus the same as the schools?
me: Yes mam, we follow the schools' syllabus according only we teach them faster so that they'll be more comfortable with the pace in school
mother: Oh really ah? But HOR, RI sets its own syllabus LEH, how AH?
me : (den what the hell are u doing here? Go find an RI tutor lah! siao zha bo!) Oh I see, would you like to see a sample of it?
mother: Sure
Me took the sample for her to see
Me: These are the ones, how is it? (forcing a smile- half appearing to be sarcastic)
mother: ( to her fat ugly bespectacled son) so how son? can? is this what u learn in school?
Son: Ok La.. (to me) BUT hor, RI sets its own Syllabus one, so hor, u know la, RI sets its own syllabus so may not be the same
Me: (getting pissed- UH-uh.. THAT is WHY I let u see the sample what, are u Retarded or what? Oh yes, RI i forgot) Well, LOOK at the sample and do u think its similar to what u have been taught? (half-mocking at him already)
Mother: RI sets its own syllabus a bit harding than normal ones leh..
Son: Ya, RI sets its own syllabus, it even writes its own textbooks, so its different
Me: (YES, enough! I KNOW RI sets its own bloody syllabus! Did RI teach you to be a parrot or smth?!) Well, Since you are so good already, Why do you still need tuition? ( i mean, you are just stupid beyond hope, and oh, if you want, maybe i can recommend u to the IMH- the best tuition center for ppl like ur son) (Force a big bright smile and makin sure the boss isnt ard)
Mother: ...... (looks at the sample)
Son: .... (looks at the mother)
Mother: Oh, hmm.. its quite similar, i think i'll consider first, Thank You very much
Me: U're welcomed (to go back to ur Retarded Instituition)
See! That's the USUAL kind of parents who send their kids for tuition, and when i worked at the counter, i've to deal with soo many of such idiotic parents... haiz.. oh well okok, enuff of them, talk abt moi work now, doing ALOt of Art& crafts. and it hasnt been all that good either,
Response of
Laminating machine: Moi teachers' photos, profiles.. melted in it... dunno why..anyway, its not so bad now coz i tore out the melted-solidified sheets and now its usable again... only that i broke my ruler while doing it...
Shredder: Paper jammed even before it got shredded, none of moi collegue can use it after that, from now on, i shred them myself...
Colour printer: Paper jammed or unaligned...it finally froze altogether and not respond coz i have put too many printing jobs at one time...
Printer: Paper jammed and i dunno why...(each time at diff place, it always makes me sweat while trying to pull out the jammed paper and ended up tearing it away leaving the bits still stuck in place...)
Computer: Nothing is aligned the way i want them to
Printers-in-general: I often click the wrong printer so moi doc acutally did get printed- in other ppls' printer all over the HQ...
There's seriously absolutely wrong... clash of personality??!!
So that's me in moi work....
Thank You
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Loves...
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