Tuesday, February 27, 2007
I'm fine.
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Loves...
I want to end this life you gave me. Why? I dont want to be played around anymore! I have failed all your trials and tests. I failed the tests of the world and your tests and everything else that is testable.
You want a testimony from me? It is that I am MADE a failure. YOU are perfectly capable of making people for the sake of just making them fail. That is their only job on earth. Even though you took away Job's things, YOU GAVE HIM BACK TWICE as much. What abt me?? Ppl pls dont use Job's example. HE wasnt made a failure, I am. Dont give me stories like oh this guy failed 7 times blahablahblah I DONT CARE! That is THEM, not me.
Dont let me lean on you only to let me fall.
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Loves...
You said your plans are always the best. Is making me spend more time and money on another Test better? Is making my schedules so tight taht there is not even time for myself good? Is adding this worry together with tons of other worries of work that i have good? YOU ASK YOURSELF. What is your point? Are you driving me to sell my soul to Satan?? IN YOUR FACE for you to be happy that you dont have to care for another one of your created souls? The one you made to be SOLD away? Just because you dont feel like taking care of it anymore??
I DONT GET YOU. Why are you making this SO HARD? Do you really think i can cope?
YOU are pushing it too far
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Loves...
God, WHY did you make me a failure? If u want to play with my life then what is the point of letting me have it?? WHAT IS THE POINT? WHAT Is the point of wasting all the time and effort of mine just to show me in my face that I SUCK?
Congrats, You have succeeded in making me a failure, telling it to me like a tight slap on my face. Wasting my time and money and opportunity cost of doing my projects, screwing my grades along with it. YOU HAPPY NOW??? DO YOU LOOK DOWN FROM HEAVEN AND SMILE AT MY HORRIBLE FAILURES FOR PURE ENTERTAINMENT? YES.
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Loves...
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
I'm sucked into WOW. Again. Its like drug, a really addictive one. I'm taking in little dosage of it each week. I hope i can keep it moderate. I think i can though... I think. So far its only for a month and i'll stop. i hope...
I love the poem Globin Market. Its so creative and you can read it again and again and think its interesting. With 4 or more interpretations of it and its association with so many different contexts, it has successfuly place itself 1st above other poems such as Aurora Leigh and My Last Duchress, easily by passing We are Seven.
btw, my English tutor is cool. I mean, she has a gigantic tattoo on her back
and i miss Little Britian..
WOW oh WOW.. what have you done????
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Loves...
Friday, February 02, 2007
Stupid things always happens when Mary ann and i are together. I think i said this many times since the days of EWs (English Writings in BP). But i guess its better than when stupid things only happen to me alone coz den i'll look silly alone.
But really, we ought to familiarize ourselves with our sch shutter bus. We were actually quite glad that we ended our 1st class 1h earlier, excited to eat Hall 2 Canteen food we attempted to take the Shutter bus - which we unfortunately couldnt quite regonize. As this red bus approached us, we were in the stance of boarding it only to realise it didnt stop for us because its for factory workers. (btw tt bus stop only has the 2) Just then at the opposite bus stop, there arrived a vaugely familiar bus. That was the shutter bus.
All things were good on the bus even though we dont quite know which way is nearer and where exactly we can alight. Anyways because we didnt know where the bus bell was, and not wanting to look stupid by asking, we prayed hard that some1 will either board at that stop and/or alight there - which one thankfully did or we'd have sat pass it like stupid cows.
Til now, i have no idea where the bell is positioned.
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Loves...
