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Tuesday, January 30, 2007

yay. i just changed my blogskin to white coz i'm quite sick of black.

Finally finished my fil250 essay its a great test of my APA and summary skills. I am so looking forward to tue shopping! its been some time since i shopped with Mary ann (although QJ will blame her for my spending but its really NOT her fault, in fact she my best shopping partner - able to critique and comment and give advises as to what i am going to buy instead of some mere "OK." kind of useless comments.)

btw, QJ told me his campmate got 4 nipples.
Like REALLY 4 extra nipples without the breast around it and probably has some strands of manly hair on it too.

- Loves...

i just browsed a few of my friends' blog today (i mean friends whose blog i never visited before): Deana's one is cool full of fun things and pictures, Joanne's one is ultimately cool just like her, Mary ann's one is.. well.. dead as usual haahaha well and now i think mine's ugly like hell. I hate this ugly blogskin and i DONT KNOW how to change it omg. some1 help me pls!

Its a good thing to get something going since i blog when i am bored.. like w/o WOW i really do seems to have lots of free time. Besides my blog's been dead (again) and maybe i really should follow xiang'er's suggestion to revive it. (even though the revival doesnt and wont ever last long)

But alas! i always got nothing to say! If i really need to pour out my sorrows.. i'd do it face to face, it feels much better than typing it out - i am not exactly a poet ya know. Besides my words structures usually cannot bring out the intensity of my emotions. Or Maybe i am just distant and clinical- which strangely is the way i like myself to be.

- Loves...

Sunday, January 28, 2007

ok i shall not sound so emo now. i'm not exactly emo when i talked about death - i'm just mobid. Like sometimes when i talk about death, i actually dont mind experiencing it. Its a passing moment when i feel that i got nothing to lose.

But of course not all the time i feel that way.

I'm growing a tummy.. a huge spare tire around my waist, its going to be so big that ppl will mistake it for a swimming float stuck on me. Its a clear sigh that i should make an effort to run now or go shoot some balls. But.. but.. i am too lazy to renew my contact lenses.. havent renew it for 2 months alr.. Now its only going to be ready on thursday..

And i cant swim coz my hairdresser told me not to..

Hairdresser: xiao mei ah, remember you cannot go swimming ok?
Me: huh? Whhyy??
Hairdresser: Because the chlorine will discolour the highlights of the hair. Make untill so pretty den you want to go spoil it.. no la dont swim la
Me: ohh ok. Then how long would i need to wait before i can swim in it again?
Hairdresser: Hmm when you dont like this colour anymore lor, u can swim and it will change colour one.

So yeah..

So today was boring.. I missed church (as i have mentioned earlier on) and spend the whole day reading Don Juan Canto1 and A Defence of Poety.. Actually i rather read the poets' biographies. Like how Lord Byron is a ultra scandalous guy who loves making out with guys and has hots for his half-sister and cousin and married his wife only to escape this crazy pursuit of a girl. (poor Lady Byron!)

- Loves...

Its cold and dreary. I missed church today *sigh* its horrible, i dont want to miss it but yet i did. I cant blame anything nor anyone but myself.

And I am sick. I hear this really annoying soft siren sound ringing in my ears. Its like the sound of blood gushing to my brains or that air is being circulated in my ear and this is amplified coz my ears are blocked, as well as my nose. Making me having to sit in an awkard position just to get enough air into my lungs - sometimes this isnt comfortble at all. In fact, its ALWAYS not comfortble.

And i think this blog is ugly.

- Loves...

Thursday, January 18, 2007

Pls be patient, soon, after this sem, i shall create my very own blog layout in flash version! i will!!! So begins my days of filming, shooting, html-ing, visualizing....and so on and so forth.

I miss playing basketball.

- Loves...

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

If only my family can be more patient and understanding. more gentle and kind towards my insecurities.

Life sucks. i dont know why i manage to live til 21. i sort of dont really want to. There isnt really much that i look forward to. anymore. If i have to bear with people spitting on me, laughing at me, giving me condesending gaze with glee just because i am not good enough, i rather not live to experience it. I think 21 years of these is more than enough, i'm quite surprise that i actually tolerated it for that long, not that my tolerance level is getting any higher. Well, maybe if you minus my infant/toddler years where i have no memory of anything, it'd be about 16 years of pain.

Funny why for most times, i dont remember being happy. like truely happy. Its strange how these things got eased out of my memory and never got back.

Maybe they got lost when people who made it, forget it.

- Loves...

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Mum's home-baked Tiramisu cake! No cake can beat hers!

I only wish i can have a photo of my family and me with this cake, like those birthday pictures people usually take, but i guess we dont have this practice anymore.. but i always hope birthday after birthday that i can have one. I hope i can have one next year then!

- Loves...

Saturday, January 06, 2007

Happy birthday to me... I am 21. But i dont get what is the big fuss about it actually, it didnt really feel any special or what. it feels like any normal birthday or even a usual day in fact. But i guess one of the surprise gifts i had was a hand-made birthday card from Janet Oh Chin Hui- a person who NEVER makes nor write any cards and who still owe me a postcard from J2 A'levels 3 Years ago... and i actually frame up her card, really!

Oh Chin Hui's card.

This is the cake Eliza bought me! So sweet and small and cute~ i ate it all up myself.. with MA taking 2 bites.

This is the cake the cell group got for me, reminds me of an alter but then we used only 1 candle in the end and we didnt light up any coz there was no lighter..

This year is one year i got so many cakes for my birthday while most birthdays in my teens i had none...

Didnt post up my mum's home-baked tiramisu, yet. That too, was quite a surprise.

And yes. I watched my 1st R21 show ytd, BORAT is funny. I was nearly not allowed till i argued that i was just a day to 21 and 1 day aint going to make any big difference in my thinking or whatsoever.. she relented in the end. Thank God or i'd have wasted the tickets. Lucky Quanju, he was the YOUNGER one yet he escaped. I guess size does makes a difference.

Yeah. I can vote now. Singapore had better give me some Singapore shares to offset the tax hike.

- Loves...

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Welcome to the 3rd day of 2007 where i woke up with a burning sensation on my left ear. the pain was so sharp and deep that it jerked me awake. Lo and behold! i took a peek at the mirror at 6 in the morning only to realise the stud has disappeared. The ear lope has swell to the size of a 5-cent coin.. only it is not flat. its fat.

where was the stud!??

It was embedded deep into the flesh of my ear lope as the lope swell to a mammoth size, the tiny gap left by the stud could no longer contain its bursting enegry and hence it enleashed itself, eating through my flesh.

yuck.

It was painful as hell even as the doc took it out. it was a good 30min process where i was given 3 injections of local anaesthetic. but, it couldnt numb the area and i could still feel the excruciating pain of the trudging and pulling of the stud from my blood/pus-filled flesh. Not to mention that i could still hear the sugergical tools clinking against each other as they try to dig for the embedded stud. it felt as if someone was drilling a nail into my ear lope, and after it was taken out, the all that grusome blood, pus and pieces of flesh can be seen stuck to the base of the stud.. hmm i think i wont load it here coz i never know if any of you might be just eating your favorite tomato spagetti because it really looks like leftover spagetti stuck on a fork.

Below was what my normal ear looked like...

part (1)