Sunday, February 20, 2005
[a piece of Frustration. on my part.]
I'm so very argh...!!! i feel soooo tied up, so constrained, so restricted...!!!! Like a little piece rag u tie, 9-folded and squeezed into a all-too-small plastic bag and it looks wholely like a vaccum piece of pillow. In fact. I AM in a vaccum!
If only i can turn back time....ARGHZ....... and while EVERYONE's going back to my fun and carefree SAJC, waiting in lines perhaps for funfair games of pin-ball throwing, winning prizes and soft toys and little sweet things made from the creative juices of the students, eating popcorns and nice soft cotton candy which will fleet like the little clouds in the wonderful clear blue sky above. ALL will devour the absolute pleasure of seeing each other and catching up with lost time, reliving the old memories being back in our old and tattered, about-to-be-demolished cosy warm school WHILE i sit in my Synthetic Cell with only a lousy lonesome glaring computer as company which really isnt company at all-it makes my eyes tear. I've to rush to meet datelines set by all my superiors with very little cooperation. Guess what? I've now only a day to complete a whole new BIG set of task given to me yesterday.
DAmn it!! I miss SAJC I miss moi teachers tho some are horrible, but i'd prefer them than work!
I miss moi classmates!!! Chu-Kwek-Di-Ni-Pok-Ha!
I MISS MY BASKETBALL TEAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I miss the indoor basketball court with the left side of the rim tilted to the side..
I miss training!!! Miss running Labador Park, running Telok Blangah Hill, miss running up 100 stories and back to school (with moi team of coz! Its always fun to run w more ppl)
I Miss all my adventures in school...all moi escapes, runaways, pon-ings and total defiance...
I miss my JC life....
Saints BBALL! Miss them like Crazy..
Kinda worried about my results suddenly.. I seriously have no idea what to do if I cant get into Uni..as in, Uni of my choice. Dont know if NIE would accept someone w that kind of results?
Dont wanna think about it..
I played basketball today, rushed to play after work. Its so irritating to have to put on make up and den I'll have to scrub every inch of my face like 5 times before i'm sure that its clean.. Like I dont wanna have a pimple plantation or smth! anyway, the cleaning takes Forever, and i only got to play for 2 hours before the court lights off. And I dont even think that its going to give me muscle aches - somthing i always look forward to, it shows i've truely worked out - the similar feeling of satisfation after each training. At least it comforts me that i'm exchanging some useless fats for some fine muscles- though i've lost quite a bit of muscle mass.. I want to tone it up again! haiz.. again, i miss training.
sometimes, I dont wanna grow up.
the end.
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Loves...
