Monday, May 16, 2005
[ girls- strange creatures of the world ]
Moi voice's SEXY. -cough- coz I'm losing it to Cough...
I'm beginning to get buzy again- and i like the spontaneity of it - going here, there in the last min, planning to get together again like of out the blue.. I love meeting all moi friends. and though money now flows in a one-way traffic, I'm still glad i quit moi boring disguesting mundane office job.
Been writing letters: but always forget to send... -___-"' (sorry guys!)
I really enjoyed moi day with Mary Ann - it was on a tuesday. 'been looong since i last went out with her, we always say we will, but it happens only once or twice a year. (coz of buzy buzy JC life) But not to worry now that we'll be in the same course and, hopefully in the same class as well. And I know we'll share the same dorm- so no worries abt that now! I'm so glad how we can still talk like we did in primary and secondary school- doesnt seem to have an end! Its good to have someone who shares the same feelings as u do- like how shitty NS is and what it is doing to our boyfriends. and yes, how JEALOUS we can get just to see our guy look at a girl he doesnt even know personally- yes, its a serious offence and it gets on our nerves.
And sometimes girls just feel sad and lonely for no reason. They are strange creatures- there can be a period of time when, though surrounded by ppl, their inner self will for some reason isolate itself from the whole self- that's when u feel extrememly lonely even though u're with everybody. It almost feels like the real you is invisible and u're just watching your character in a group of ppl talking and smiling to them but you cant actually connect to them or to urself in the screen to reach out to them; and neither can they reach out to the real you through your shadow amist them..you're just watching urself on screen, in slow motion, with no control over what happens- though u kinda know how things will turn out coz its pure etiquette and human behavior. (like how ppl ask "how are u?" and u say, "I'm fine, thank you"). The people are there, but not there.
It feels pretty weird- but that's how you'll feel lonely and then sad. And then for some reason, cry coz the world seems to ignore you and you seem to be reduced to just a mere shadow.
And its worse when your boyfriend isnt here with you.
That's when u have friends like Mary ann, who can do just a good job as your boyfriend to pull you out of this la la land.
we're strange, arent we?
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Loves...
