Tuesday, August 02, 2005
been a looong time since i last blog..
been really hooked on WOW.. its a wonderful game, but it kinda confines me to my own cell and is wholely responsible for my gaining weight and unsightly cellulite! yuck! so yep, i've shrunk to a pale ghastly-looking fat bloke who do all IT geeks proud. No offence intended. bah!
anyway, School has started for me, if u wanna take a look at my same old brand new hostel room, pls click on Mary Ann's blog, its in there.. coz we share the same room! But pls note that anything messy is fully her side. -grinz-
so much to do, so little time. Yet here i am, feeling lost and insecure coz i have tons to do, yet none to do. I see other friends from other faculty like.. Econs, Business or Engineering, they have tutorials and work, like real, solid, tangible work to do while i sit down here, clueless abt mine. Not that i dont know that i must do anything, in fact, i know truely that i have things to do. But question is as to what? I've been given a project to complete.. Work for a community.. as to? AFA? NVC? i have no idea.. not many instructions were given, sometimes, none were given at all. Yet, we have assignments and projects glaring at us in eveNTUre.. its scary. Much like "here are what u shld get done before u graduate. Good luck" Yes, this overwhelming freedom doesnt come without the price of insecurity. A paradox. An oxymoron.
and i miss home.. i miss my mother, and my sisters (as irritating as they are, i still do..) I'd rather listen to Bonnie's crap abt some dude in her school or emily's whine abt her books than be alone in school.. okiz, not that alone, but i will, be each time Cam books out with Mary ann.. (-hint hint! MA) I guess the only fun part of staying in a Hostel is staying with Mary ann, which dosent make this experience indispensible coz its her who makes the company and experience and not the hostel persay.
so.. i guess.. i don't quite like my so called new found "independence." In fact, living in a dorm doesnt make u independent, u wonder why people say they are independent just coz they stay in one. It is, in my opinion, an utterly cliche thing to say, not to mention, shallow.
But that's a topic for another day..
nitez.
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