Thursday, January 19, 2006
[Catchin up with Age ]
Doesnt that title sound old.. or make ME sound old..
or maybe i am?! i've finally hit a "2" in front of my age.. Happy Birthday! this time no food poisoning as supposed to the last.
I dont know where to start, my dears.
I'm sorry to disappoint you each time you come to view my way backdated blog.. i usually have alot to say, but i just say it out loud that i feel no need to type it out or i am just too lazy to do so.. or.. its just too much to type.. ie. like i speak faster than i type? My thoughts overtake my clumsy fingers with ease. much apologies.
right now, its weird how i seem to blog with an audience in mind, even though i'll never know who actually bothers to come?!
This semester's timetable is so much better. 3 and a half day week, Friday offs! What more could i ask for? Discipline maybe? to fully make use of these free days instead of sleeping them away.
I guess i am drifting away.. i dont know why. Or, perhaps i do, but i just dont want to admit it.
I am writing less.. i read the bible less.. i go to church less.. My life seems incomplete.. but i just feel helpless about the seemingly hopeless situation i am in. I am in stuck in the forces of opporsites - in a limbo world..
I wonder why i seem so lost.. I miss the security of fixed timetables and classmates i used to have. to have the school adminstrators do every planning for you. To have long trainings and painful essays to complete. To live the life of a careful student who enjoys climing over school gates for cheap thrills. To wear a school uniform which so defines that very security.
I dont want to grow up..
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Loves...
