Saturday, February 04, 2006
[World of WARcraft]
I've grown accustomed to you, blog. yes, you. The neglected one, and casted away, the almost oblivion to me. Yes why have i come on and talk to you about a subject you have no knowlegde of nor interest in? Nor does my potential readers for that matter. A topic which bores you, which is absolute greek to you.
I have no idea, i guess it is because you dont interrupt me. You dont talk back nor do you disagree. Silence means consent. and i take that for comfort.
This World of Warcraft is seemingly becoming a World where Wars of Self and Others come. Where i feel a sense of losing my freedom in doing what i have first came to play for. I have been lost to Responsiblilty where Obligation bugs you like bees to honey. Isnt it amazing that such obligations and feelings can be carried over online, in the mist of all the nicks and hidden identities, there lies a true bond of human relations. Where you feel guilty or happy or sad over something you did or did not do for a person whom you have never met?
This is so messy. i cannot even sort in out in words. bah! but raiding everyday of my week is pointless.. yes no doubt i do get thrills doing some raids (i.e MC and ZG) i dont see why i should do more than what pleases me. As to the Law Of Diminshing Marginal Returns (LDMR) it is not, in my case, enjoyable to raid 7 days a week. it goes down after a peak, and my peak happens to be.. not so high. i am commited to what i have choosen and i should not feel obliged in anyway. (pardon me people, i'm sorry if i confuse you over some terms here, or seem to make no sense) I guess i am making no sense, but bear with me as i make sense out of nonsense. My feelings of obligation stems from a seemingly well-covered emotional blackmail. Take it that you have to buy a package in order to get one of the 2 things from that package. and none of the two is each sold separately. I'm blabbing. i'm sorry. but it doesnt matter as long as these make sense to me.
because i am not you.
and you are not me.
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